uh uh uh .
im back . haha . apology for making this blog of mine private for time being .
sheesh . stress about something which i shouldn't (:
cry about someone which is no use . (:
so lets ENJOY !

ive got alot to blog actually .
starting from last thursday , when i perm my hair with my bff (rushdy) .
that normal perm which i find is a waste of money . $50 gone ! . sheesh .
sucks . cause now its ruin . heh . i make it ruin cause i forget that it cant be comb down . *slenge*
so i think im going to waste my money again this time for digital perm (:
& thanks to atyra who recommend me the salon . cheap . $70 aje .
so looking foward to my another perm-ed hair .
thank you rushdy razak for teman-ing me . (:
sayang kau kawan .

that thursday 26/02/09.
was also the day that i met him .
should i call him or sexylove ? nah , stick with him better . *don't you think so?*
it was our 1st time . -.-"
kinda funny cause we both sesat . *LOLS*
but 1 thing in common , we actually don't plan but we wore the same colour top .
& so yadayada . we took a bus & headed home .
pathetically , he is rushing cause its peak hour . -.-"
support him up with his motor prac .

so do your best to pass it okay .

& that's my thursday .

its no use crying , he asleep anyway .
sometimes i felt so left out .
i don't know what are WE .
and i don't know why he treat likes there's nothing between us .

whatever , im tired of you [!]
no use talking about him also .

went out with rushdy razak ,
haha , a last min plan (:
i forced him to follow me since i was BUIH-ED by my own gf .
so we headed to where we want to go ,
sekali die tutup dah ~
then we headed to imm & makan (:
we buy something together , like friendship band gitu la .
so kalau terpandang that thing we remember each other .
*friends forever*
-.-"
& being a good friend of mine , he help me choose my necklace & my anklet .
; aku pilih sumue style . again -.-"
walk around imm and headed to jrg west lame .
and do our survey , thot of perming at that point of time .
but like no time gitu .
so he say , kite pegy besok jelar (:

& he promised .
9.30am okay kawan .
that's all for not so good tonight .
& again thanks to my dearest friend & cuzin who willing to lend a ear .
rushdy razak , sham , cuz shida , atyra .
thk you .
& for you dear . i hope u're realise what are doing to me .
looking foward for tomorrow outing .
hold my hands together and pray that everything runs smoothly .
amin .

now the time is 10.31pm .
i still had yet receive a message from him .
since 12:45:51 .

i don't know where you go .
i don't know where are you now .
i just don't know !

i got nothing else to say .
hate me leave me .

:'(
for the second time .

im stupid bored .
fish ~
with the weather like that .
awww , nice to catch a long sleep . hahas .
sexylove is out studying again [!]

b !!!!!!! u owe me post .
grrr !
belajar2 , hahas .
weak la you .
b , thursday meet me (:
kkk , i love you so mucchhh !

finally i went out .
haha , can't stand sitting at home doing nothing (:

went to ikea with ibu .
cus she say she wanna buy some rugs .
but we ended up buying lots of stuffs .
haha , we buy MY lamp (:
hall punye stand lamp .
2 rugs (:
& some kitchen stuffs .

& i envy each of their showrooms .
ya allah , lawa giler .
kalau la my whole house was like that .
*angan2 mau lebih *
no way angan2 eh . i can make that as a wish come true (:
since im going to take my favourite course .
haha , ape lagi . workhard uh beb .
gaji maut okay (:
not only the whole house . dgn corridor2 sekali aku buat (:
heh , for now . duduk pat rumah diam okay .

sexylove just reach home (:
miss him .
"im not sexy" -.-"
of course you are not . hahahs .
im going to perm my hair , insyaallah tomorrow .
nak dye , c memangtaksexy.com nanti marah .
i tak dye you nak dye ~
hahah , you shhh !

& to that "wanz esparada"
esprada ke , esprado ke . esso ke .
pergi mati sudah la kamu . *malay pekat [!] *
baru kenal nak jumpe , tak pergi sekolah ke ?
pastu , bbual manenye fanatic je .
ohsungguhmerepek.com.my .

okayla , till here .
iloveyou sexylove .

list of what i miss ;

1; i miss my sexylove .
2; i miss my girlfriends .
3; i miss my secondary sch life !!!
4; i miss sleeping in class .
5; i miss texting in class .
6; i miss being bullied by my classmates .
7; i miss going to the toilet with my gfs at sch .
8; i miss eating at sch canteen .
9; i miss when the time i was punish when im late for sch & was asked to stand behind .*malu oi!*
10; i miss when we kena spotcheck *seram2* .
11; i miss when we sing sch song .
12; i miss when i cry while talking to my counsellor .
13; i miss the teachers who taught me .
14; i miss the time when im having my NPCC camp .
15; i miss sleeping in tents .
16; i miss my GOH time . *kening up2*
17; i miss when i action la kan , take over my npcc squad (:
18; i miss mr lim! the pizza & kfc teacher .
19; i miss wearing the kental sch uniform .
20; i miss night study , actual fact (explore!)

that's alot (:
im getting sleepy .
people do this if you cannot sleep.
it works on me .
*yawnzz*
bye .

here i am to blog again . *smile*
went to jp with mum & dad & my irritating lil bro (:
and im so in love with my perm-ed do my self hair .
& im going to make it permanent (:
yay [!]

this is what i notice in my bag ,
what i always bring is my IPOD . wallet . hairclip & hairband .
i cant live without my watch (:

thats the least i bring when i go out .
haha , ni tkde kje berbual psl brg . nonsense [!]
the most i don't like day is sunday .
& its the period when most of the people spend their time at shopping centers.
that is total freak [!]
cus nnt jln gesek2 la . terlanggar la . & everything .
stupid .
& what i notice now the trend is ; hair extensions.
aww , done that (:
but i cnt stand people with lots of hair extensions with COLOURS .
its so UN-COOL .
if like some strand okay la . but kinda like whole hair ???
-.-"
& i seriously hate when there's a couple opposite me.
& her bf looked at me & then the gf like kinda give me a hard stare .
oh-puuhhhlllleeaassseee . -.-"
if you have a boyfriend . i have too okay .

talking about bf ,
sexylove is sleeping .
i understand .
mane tak penat . after keje then pergi blaja .
& his style is penat boleh belajar , klw tk penat tk boleh masok .
bengong [!]
apa punya style dahh b....... ~
dun mind lah okay , janji u happy i happy (:
thinking of meeting him today [!]
monday kan ? but mum spoil the plan la .
ajak pergi ikea pulak .
grr .

& when is the time im going to perm my hair ??!!
stupid .
i miss my colleagues .
esp , kak nurul & karen .
shhessh .
& my favourite milk digestive biscuit .
since this thursday im sending my company's stuff back .
i meet sexylove sekali la kan & go vivo meet my peeps (:
yay [!]

haha , thats all .
sleeping with my make up . ROSAK [!]
ILOVEMYSEXYLOVE .

bored bored bored .
heh -.-"

sexylove is working .
& im cool with it .
ahahas , i miss him of cuz but he's working kan .
tk mcm dulu . hehehe .
he's been complaining about the people who's unhappy with him .
& his pants are wet & all .
hahah , funny la him .

mum keep nagging about the electric bills .
ala , dah bagos tu org ddk umah main laptop
dari keluar melepak . tak pasal jd minah . *LOL*
1 more month to go beb .
school here i come .
i rather travel long distance than sit in this house all day long .
goodness .
& because of mum getting on my nerves too .


kla , dats ol .
i love you sexylove (:

ive chge my blogskin again .
and my tagboard too .
cause got this tkdekje spammer dirty-ingg my tagboard .
& idk why its so colour-fool [!]
shhesssh , hahah ! (:
thank you shikin . haha .
again , im starting to learn something new .
well done .
precisely , i neither copy nor paste from anybody's blog .
so i SHOULD bangga .
heh -.-"


sexylove is sleeping right now.
as days goes by , he SLOWLY change *big2 smile*
i don't expect he change that fast but he slowly does it .
& not suprising i love him more than ever (:
"b i busy cus im working hard now so that when we marry we are happy , no financial problems syg"
awww , sweets (:
he do have this kind of thingking actually when we fight .
not like some other guy who crap alot . but solve nothing .
good thinking aliff (: hahah .
ireallydoloveyoualot.
& im getting use to it with his system .
haha , and he too to my system .
promise you , i'll trust you b (:

today , a being a suu-ee-hh night ,
my wireless internet router rosak [!]
stupid , because of you im sitting in my living room [!]
so i guess im gg to sleep early .
so i shall end here (:

walap! iloveyou.

love; shikin

okay , im pretty bored .
serious shit . not pretty bored . BUT TOTALLY BORED !
ive been sitting for almost more than 48 hours playing my laptop.
browsing ppl's blog. chk my tagged . & blog ..
love is busy studying .
& i was supposed to MEET him today .
but thks to my "lovely" mum .
& the grt weather .

had a misunderstanding with mum since yesterday .
& brought foward it till today [!]
idk la want she wants .
and im freaking bored to hell.
no money , no job & no LIFE .
school pls pls pls . start early for my sake .......
life after o level is freaking bored .
what i do i eat & laptop & sleep .

& some stupid fella didn't understand what is the meaning of im att .
sheesh , ask me out when i myself didn't have the chance to meet love.
not fair okay [!]
ilovemyone&only alep.
((:
i was passing by to someone's blog .
goodness , just bcus her bf is a diff religion .
she wanted to change religion .
okay , im no good myself .
but itu kan dosa besar .
whatever it is , again im no good myself .
diff people diff destiny .
so all the best of luck *wink*

love; shikin
"ihopemyhusbandgonnabeguidemethroughsafely(:''

the quote ,
"why don't you love me , the way i love you ?"
"you're gonna hurt me ; cuz im tired of crying"

i know i must be understanding .
but how long , ppl do have feelings .
i can try to understand you but do you ever understand me ?
i didn't ask you that much .
just a simple text saying that u care abt me & you love me .
its that so hard ?
i don't wish to brag but , whatever [!]

i don't know what u take me for .
sometimes i wonder what are WE .
i don't disturb you when u're out study or whatever stfs u're doing .
& i waited for you to come home .
wait for you to text me .
wait for you to call me .
but what i get in return .

i know i have my weakness .
i know im not like others girls .
but that's me .
if you can't accept me , by all means .
you know i love you .
but .

thks rushdy razak & syafiq rosli (:
thks for making my tears dry .
& idk why im crying .
sensitive , easily hurt .
i think so ..
& rushdy , org bisu uh ..
haha (:
syg kau kwn . *bile mau pizza!*

thats for tonight ,
im hurt enough .
thank you .
; "i thought i want to meet you up but ..."

'just a random feelings, don't wronged me"

today mum's dapur menu = tomyam [!]
yum2 , sungguh sedap (:

idk why the heck im talking abt food .
hahahas .
& im getting circle [!]
my face bulat , my perot . don't say [!]

my morning sleep was disturb by my mum -.-
& so was forced by her to go gek poh .
(what kind of name is that?)
& yadayada at thr .
& something funny happen .
gosh ,
i was talking to my mum abt nowadays economy .
& beg her to pray for me & blessed me so that i can get a job .
& was talking about money & stfs .
then the bus came .
then i say , "eh mak . duit"
we LOL in the bus .
do you get it ? hahah . if slow kn .
what i meant is i want to say "eh mak bus"
but tersasul duit (:

yadayadayada .
idk why mum talk crap today .
she say rendam baju pat kuali la .
angkat ayam da kering la.
mak mak mak , peninngggggggggggggggg . -.-
i love you mak (:

hubbeey busy with his study .
everyday study .
tak pecah ke otak you b ?
nvm , gdluck for your upcoming exam dear .
& iloveyoualways .
btw , its funny la b .
talam dua muke ehh ..
hahah! muke mcm BUDAK2 abes .
cute ((:

& tomorrow im gg for another interview .
childcare center (:
kids & kids & kids . super - CUTE .
& now i know how important is O LEVEL CERTIFICATE.
& backing up is your experience .
you need that two .
im trying new line so i hope & i prayed hard .
atleast give me a chance to have that experience (:
gdluck (:

iloveyouhubby(:
; shikin .

& wait , haha . i totally forget about my motor story (:
i mean my motor soon to be . err , my dad one actually (:

thks eh abg alep ! nsb baek kau tk mati .
& i felt pity to that friend of yours who died in the accident .
a BIG MISTAKE you all SHOULD LEARN .
NEVER RIDE A MOTORCYCLE WITHOUT A LISENCE [!]
& pls check that ur motorcycle is a safe one (:

so now , its back here .
to whr it belongs & to whr it rust .
but thk you abg alep , mtr tu mcm muke kau jgK! .
haha , mcm mat mtr peh kau tuka ?
ish , mmg bdk design pon .
cya on hari raye (:

love ; your distant cuz (:

i don't know , how many times im going to keep changing my skin !
urghhh ~
1stly , i myself feel like mcm tk puas gtu .
2ndly , who knows (NIL) say i copy . no originality .
3rdly , im BORED !

whatever . if im happy who cares right .
cus i know myself better .
& sometimes it can be coincident.
just they don't know .
whatever , hate to brag about small & stupid stuffs .

thursday , kenduri ?
mau pegy pe b?
hahaha , this guy keep texting about his kenduri .
& hubbeey pny siak .
"kite pegy uh , dtg mkn je.. die jmpot ape .."
ish , rude ! hahaha .
x)
life without him texting me .
to where ever he goes & stuffs . im cool (:
getting used to it .
saved my prepaid also . heh .
but after he's done with his study or takraw .
we talk . talk bullshit .
haa , (:

& im totally broke .
serious , i need a job .
somebody hire me !
im good . hehehe .

okay then , till here .

love; shikin (:

he's out , study again (:
& me at home again , eventhough im 18 dis yr .
i love cartoons . haha . & im watching avatar .
gahahaaaha , the show is total cool . (:
abt , love & friendships & protecting their own nation .

wake up at 5 . wow .
& it totally hurts , my tummy .
stupid period ~
then went to inteview . haha .
pray hard la eh . i don't know if i get that job or not (:

& im scrared of cockroaches & i admit it .
my goodness , you know when everymonth they will have this routine
of spraying this chemical to get rid of that pests .
eeeeWWWWWWeeeeeeeeeeeWWWWW!
gross & i vomit bcus of that stupid lil' pest .
wth ~
manenye tidak , that PESTS was all over the ground .
some were dead & some were even crawling (!)
that freak me out , *naek bulu roma (!)*
"& WHERE ALL THE SAPU2 PPL !!!?????"
i sapu you all then you know !
urgh ~

hubbeey was not happy with the resume guy .
ofcourse luh , who's bf is happy ?
when , a guy ask you to come over his house for a kenduri for his late bro .
come on , i & him is not even a friend .
& he even dared to treat me like his adek angkat .
whatever ~
phew i had a boyfriend (:

till then , i miss you .

i'm sorry .
i didn't know that you're not use to the system.
but , for me its really different .
i felt insecure , being left out sometimes & then things gonna get negative.
& i started to have those negative thoughts .
i tried real hard & i do whatever things that keeps me busy .
i know & i understand . but somehow or rather .
i have feelings too . wanting to be loved & love sumone .
i guess this is just a beginning , there's more to come .
im sorry dear , really am .
don't worry , soon im going to get busy too .
& i guess more buzier than you .
cause i have to manage my time with studies , work & soon my madrasah (:
whatever it is , i know , deep inside .
we love each other . deeply (:

Dear shikin,
I know u want love,attention,affection and so on,but i cant give it to u at 1 go.Thats just how life is dear.Im only human.It hurts me most when u said ur mine but u feel sgl.I was so surprised u wrote that!I noe i cant text u every minute for 24 hrs,i noe i didnt tell u my whereabouts as im not used to ur system,i noe u didnt feel my love towards u BUT get this right dear,I LOVE U.Want me to repeat myself?I LOVE U.What is important is that i truly and sincerely love u.Life has its ups and downs.Dont expect us to be happy all the time.We are bound to quarrel,argue whatsoever.This is reality n not fantasy dear.We just have to accept the way it is.
yours sincerely,
Alep

imisshim! (:
yesterday , a lil bit of misunderstanding happen .
v'tine day plak tu .
he finished work damn late arnd 12.30 den finish .
u imagine from 1pm to 12.30am . nk giler i dekat rumah !
hahaa, but pity him . penat2 only get $40 .
wth , pity kan ... tkpela . he says that's enuf for his prac 7 (:
then he online & he lyn2 me like so tired gitu .
tk geram ? u imagine ive been waiting for you then u like this .
grr , i sedih okay . then nangis . haha ! don't know why .
morning i refuse to text him 1st , but he text me . (:
hubbeey , hw you know im diff this morning ?
sweet (:
ilyhubbeey .

later part in noon , went to pasta mania & celeb my parents 17 ANNIVERSARY .
cool (:
he says ; "cant wait to celeb OURS"
yay ! (:


dear hubbeey ,
eventhough we just know each other for a short time . & yet to know deep inside of each other .i want you to know that i love you deeply .u asked me what makes you stand up frm the rest .
1stly , im attracted to you cause you wear a cap . i know it sounds stupid but i really mean it . haha , with or without it i still love you . BUT ! PLS WEAR ? hehe . 2ndly , u're sweet , u have ur own goals & to achieve that goals you really work hard for it . 3rdly , u're busy man but you jolly well know how to manage it all , even though sumtimes u leave me ALONE . no text MSG also (!) 4thly , you know how to pujok me when im angry (: mcm cute gitu kan ..
lastly , i didn't expect that you really care for me & love me so much . that makes me love you more (:

you !!?! urgh . whatever .
don't want to brag . slp bttr .

as promised , ive deleted ur photo . (:
see , im a good girlfriend okay . haha .
he's busy with his work , smp i msg pon die tk perasan .
haha , imyimyimy hubeey .

currently chatting with rizal , my pri sch mate (:
can't wait to go to school . hehehe .
new course but old friends . serious . many frm my pri sch friends (:
tk ke gerek gituu , & hubbeey sch is near too .. *WINK*

watsons , called me this morning saying that pls come for interview at pioneer mall .
i was so happy & jump out of bed with my bantal busuk straight to mum's room .
''mak!! watson kol ."
alhamdulillah (:

i hope i get to work in watsons .
thinking twice 7-11 not bad also .
but its night shift , & im not too sure if its safe cus my dad say thr's been quite a few time of
stealing cases in 7-11.
whatever it is , i still need my parents blessings & opinion .
cus i know , they are worry abt my safety .
hubby too right ? haha .

1 whole day in my room does'nt seems bored .
i don't qiute really understand why ppl need to go out when there is everything in ur house !
hurhur , overall im a HOMELY person .
BUT when i step out of my house . fuhh ~

im waiting , still waiting , keep waiting & again waiting & waiting
for him to msg .. i know u busy ..
i'll be waiting patiently .
& i love my new bangs (:
hahha , tangan gatal kan ..
cannot see my hair grow .. but amazingly , hair is very special .
when u say u want to cut them off . automatically they will make themselves nice .
hahahahah , stupid .

okla, off to my 2nd mandi (:
ilysm b . imy lots ..

checked ; "klw kite kawin , kite kawin pat bwh laut ! ; "hotak you !"

excuse me , ape girls kuat mrajok .
they are not okay ! ..
err, cume they want to attract their boyfriend attention je (:
so , don't forget to ATLEAST wish them a simple good morning OR
a text message saying ILOVEYOU .
especially you (!)

haha , my boyfriend is angry (:
ala , picture aje mah .
thanks to rushdy razak ! i'm hooked to this song !

tommorow is v'tine day .
BUT hubeey say CANNOT celebrate .
erm , whether there is v'tine day or no .
i know , i love my boyfriend .
ihopehelovemetoo (:

he's working tommorow .
kendarat , b ! u kje , kje eh ..
jgn mate MERAYAP sane sini .
jgn gatal2 ehh . haha .
i dpt tau , ermm ! siap you .

so AGAIN im left alone at home .
he says ; "pls be understanding"
i am dear , i trust you . i love you .
(:

okay , im going to stop here cause my eyes barely open .
haha , gudnite (:

checked ; "it seems that for you is nothing special"

ive been "forced" to post once again.haha...that gal kate ngantok la nk tdolah tpi tak tdo2..ape saje je..die majok lau i never post..biaselah pompan,kuat majok..haha..its not surprising dat frm thousands of dollars in the bank and now u get $11..haha..gals,biase lah too much money too spend on themselves..haha...derma taknak..haha...till then...

oh my , what is the different between internet explorer & firefox?
haha , whatever i like (:

hubbeey , still sleeping when i text him about my new job .
& now , while im blogging he text me .
no good morning ,nothing ! ape dahhh ~
& what was shocking . terrible ape .
i update my passbook & what i saw is left $11.98.
u imagine . from $2000 to that amount .
giler oi !!!!! tak masok akal ! ...

"gals .. biasela .. taktau nk save .. hehe .."
sakitnye hatii ....... hahaha . but i know my fault .
starting from today i shall not SHOP!
for the things that i don't need. to impress the people that i don't know.
haha , but for my own . suke2 uh . wait till i save atleast $1000 !
oh please...... i need to save up !

monday 7-11am . training .
mauut ... what i hate most is waking up early .
then i can start my new job !
$3.50 per hour , 8 hours daily .
NO SPENDING . NAK MKN ALEK RUMAH .
tuup tuup , let say i put i work arnd 23 days .
$644 dok ! . hahaha . okay ape .
THEN SAVE !
going to school soon .

& to that hubbeey of mine .
the consequences RABAK!
((:

my boyfriend sneak2 to post and say i forced him .
liar ! hahaha .
im sleepy , really . tomorrow need to wake up EARLY .
bb, wake me up . now its your turn . *evil laugh*
NOMORE hair extensions ! yay , i just love my own hair .
& it really hurts trying to pull it away when its stuck to ur old hair .
(PHEW) mum was thr to help to comb & regain my old hair .
& so , shikin da serik (:
ps ; ilovemyrealhair!

sweetheart is true , he's really busy .
with his exam coming soon . blaja oi !
& his takraw , bola la , silat la. whatever .
overall what he's really busy is SLEEPING !
HAHAHAAHA.
its okay , janji die sihat (:

hahaa, he says ; "tk boley celeb v'tine day . DOSA!"
I KNOW LER . (: so hari2 present (:
wuuuuhuuu .
bb , nomatter what im awalys thr to support you & give all my love to you .
just promise me that u'll never forget loving me .
& i prayed hard that our r'ship last long .
& i'll make you meet my parents !
& i tknk naik your vespa . when i got my car (:
ilysm .

here's your post miang!
ily bb . (:
mwaah!

haiya..ni bukan shikin ni alep..she asked me or rather forced me to post. Haha.
I was asked to post wat im feeling now.Well,im feeling hungry now eventhough i had eaten.Suspect tak bace bismillah ah.Haha.She told me she's sleepy but doesn't want to sleep.Degil siol ni pompan.Haha.Hmm...bb...i noe u want a long and lasting relationship.I cant confirm with u how long we'll last as things wont normally turn out as we plan.(even batteries yg ade chap last long pun tak last long tau).What i can promise u is that i will love u with all my heart eventhough im a bz man..here's the post u 1 b..muah!
alep

whatever to that someone .
what i know , i don't copy anybody .
that is what i get for my hardwork .
i do myself .
sorry eh .
im not a copier & i dont copy & paste .
i did ask my chi friends what is the html code colour web .
i dont have time to copy .
pls don't be a kpo .

checked ; "ily miang!"

monday went to ite simei w my bf (acap luh)
haha , gerek pe . acap ! appeal . aku hrp2 kau dpt luh seh skola tuu .. *doa2*
& seriously ite simei ! *tink twice beb* frm jrg to simei .. wow!
tk meletop bontot aku ? haah , ipod is thr to teman me (:

met roshan too , he's cool . fun & he's crappy dat day .
*sigh*
chatting w him these few days was TOTALI different like last time .
cus , he's gonna att soon .
gues , its not him . maybe i lyk him maybe not .
but just telling , ABIT portion of my heart like him .
*heh*
-.-
gdluck la okay bf (:

this's for sun outing w sha & john & jan . ( the bth JJ sha's fren (:)
i kpo2 only . haa , meet sha at intrchge kinda late . serioulsy . arnd 3.15 pm .
haa , sry la bebey (:
den head to bugis , da lame tk jejak bugis oi (:
shop arnd & teman john cuz he buying bermudas .
*wink* hes cute . thot dowane spend my money , skali ternpk dis skirt 0.o
haha , $28 gone (:
den walk arnd & headed to mkn .
SUBWAY luh , haha . ( shh! )
suprisingly met ihsan ! he work at ANIMAL .
*die tu animal oi , nt e kdai * *evil laugh *
sha bought her lil bro top & donnoe la , she spend lyk gile . haah .
den head to far east (:

had my hair done . add2 hair . my god .
*rosak!*
thot of perming , goshh . wo meyo chien .
*hee*
den alek uh , tired gile (: