i had a fabulous fantastico falauwei outing with them (: *ape siak falauwei?*
serious shit . eventhough pathetically the three of us .
a last min packing and rushing trip .
we had fun together .

i miss you guys .
can we meet up again ?
im not good in pictures . but i definitely SUPERB in taking pictures .
thnks bf , ure my inspiration . i learnt from you (:

haha . tml is my registration in simei .
shucks .
i havent got a chance to have a long long long sleep .
tired , after that got to go work .
urgh , sucky .
thats all , waiting for rushdy razak to send the 200+ over pictures .
im going to sleep .bye (:

can you be my model , i'll be your photographer .
miss TOPSHOP , miss RIPCURL , mr RAOUL .
TRR model . (:

smiling away (:
being patient pays u know (:
& ive got my w910i hp back (:
yay yay yay .
so now , im busy updating the songs and DL the theme .
gawd , im so happy (:

since monday im off , i plan to go sentosa with udy & murny .
sape2 nak join, text i okay ..
sheesh , the DL of the theme is taking hours .
haha , and plus im working full shift tml .
i should be sleeping tau .
heh .
had a misintrepret with ayg .
da la sudahla . mls nk pk2 psl jantan .
now what im worrying is my shopping and my school !
haha , cant wait to go to school .
ite simei , here i come .
see ya (:

ayg text me saying that he will be going overseas to continue his study .
so he will be leaving me .
why why why . not fair .
do you know that the warmness of ur hands is enough for me to smile .
:'(
ayg , stay with me , don't let me go .
shucks , why must you go .

no mood ~
this song is for you .

today off . yay yay yay (:
so here i am at home . laze around with my lappie & tv on and kunyah2 . haha .
this is my routine at home oi . camne tk gemok . shucks .
ibu qoute ; dok umah buang2 current , habes kan beras je .
:P
friday shft is okay but saturday is totally sucks . b shift which is 10am to 10pm.
oh my god . hahaha .
i miss murny & my gfs . all la senang kate . & imyt . *wink*
ni post mrepek . psal tkde bende nk buat .
*kening naek2* lepak uh pt rumah .
hahahah .
= posting , havent mandi yet . nyaaha . 0.0"

hey hey hey (:
baby when are you coming home !? i miss you okay . haha .
im still single la okay , ni semacam skandal gitu . ilysm (:
he's sweet luh , u see eh . yesterday i was so feeling not good .
i catch a cold and fever , sensitive lah cus i cannot tahan sejuk (:
so here you go .
him ; ayang , u alek hati2 okay .i da otw home .
me ; i noe luh busuk .
him ; ayang , u ktne ?
me ; i tgh jln nak g outram . asal ?
him ; kk , u exit dari outram i meet u there k baby?
me ; jgn nak mrepek eh .
him ; serious2 , i da nak smp ni syg .
me ; don't bedek la , u td ckp u otw home wht .
him ; just went out from outram , i fetch you .
me ; u'll get it from me later .
me ; u naik bike eh ?
him ; ah2 .
me ; taknak la , im fever-ing .
him ; bby , u tgu je .
me ; *long2 face*
him ; *hon2*
me ; you !! grr ! kate bawak bike , ni car sape u curi .
and yadayada.
i seriously love you sayang (:
thank you .

work was fun today .
i was stationed at lingerie department & half time i kene uat food tasting .
gerek~
im seriously dead at lingerie .cus i don't know anything .
so i learn la sikit-sikit .
but ALLAH save me , and the sales was boom .
like one customer will atleast buy $50 and above .
alhamdulillah .

and shcuks , fendi text me up and asked me if i still love him .
cus he wants me to be his future wife .
fcuk ! you go and mati .

i hate monday . eeww , haha . *semua i hate*
first time ever , went to work . with no make up apply . just my compact powder .
sheesh , wake up then cry , because my ipod rosak . urgh ~
then like no mood to work . monyok je muke . hahaha .

work okay la , lepak jap with budak2 movers .
then in the end they say .
"girl , u kecoh jugak eh ? gerek uh lepak with you ."
oh , heh , shikin friendly mah . sumue orang i campur . (:

i was real tired at work , come on uh . sunday's rest was disturb by mak .
wth ~
break time , makan lincah kadok then meet kak along (:
datang je , nak bende free .
haha , so next week i'll be getting my top & shorts (:
macam bedek siak , i wear shorts .
when i say shorts , real damn pendek . and tight .
shucks , kak along say suit me cause i tall . her height (:
we got same length of kaki . hahaha .
thanks for the fashion advise & free stuffs (:

i was blogging while talking to alep .
not my ex la , my friend . then he teach me how to restore everything .
hahaha , and well done ! my ipod da okay .
alhamdullilah (:
but of course la , no songs .
so now im updating all .
& sacrifice my sleep for my ipod .
now i realised , without my ipod even for a day .
im dead & gone . chey ~
but seriously , my life sucks without ipod . *step lagu kelly clarkson uh*

oh yeah , not bad sometimes when go out with family after a long 3 days work .
ahhahaa , supposed to i want to rest but mum pagy da memekak .
"nora !!!!!!!!!!!!! bangon .. kite nak pegi expo . pemalas nye budak !"
hey , i not pemalas okay , cume kurang rehat je . -.-"
so , wake up early arnd 9+
i slept at 2 am seh , not fair . haha . i drag myself to do house chores .
abit jer , vacuum & lipat kain . nyaha .. (:
so off we go to expo but before that we go my father side nenek house at redhill (:
org tue tu asek shopping je , haha , she just come back from KL .
so she bought me a chocolate -.-"
& thanks eh atok . haha .
atok ; eh , cucu atok .. dari mane ni ? lame tk jumpe .
me ; dari rumah nak kua g mkn ni . haha , kje la tok (:
atok ; oh , bile skola , da gemok la cucu atok ni . dulu kuruss . *sambil cubit2 pipi*
me ; tkde kje eh atok cubit pipi org . hahah . tau tkpe . 2 bulan dok umah oi ..
atok ; g kurus alek , dulu lawa sekarang tembam . kau ni ...

& nenek masok campur , jgn makan burger la . minum orange jus la .
hahaha , thks nenek atok (:
then something nenek said hurts me , i know la i fail to go poly .
but pelan2 la nenek . sheesh , she hug me and gave me $50 for my sch jajan (:
hahha , thats my nenek (:
expo was pack like hell seh , bomb tu tmpt pon baik (:
and i didn't know there was an adidas fair , shit , if i know i'll be the 1st one to queue .
kiasu kepe . haha , since today was their last day . bkn mcm adidas oi .
mcm tmpt buang kotak2 . KOSONG ! haha .
then i saw this one guy which look very the familiar like alep .
text him & he say i giler . pfft ~

headed to queensway utk cri my adik running shoe .
then tangan gatal kan , i buy nike flip flop since my adidas kene curi .
haha , cheaper and nicer uh (:
new design la gitu . $40 . so im left with $10 for tml work .
(:

haha , mr sotong kay siao said he missed me .
awww . :]
goodnight (:

AND MY ONLY SOURCE OF MUSIC = ITOUCH . ROSAK ! PFFT ~

tired , tired , tired .
i hate saturday . but i love saturday when shopping .
shucks , im broke . nak beli top up pon no money . wth ~

nowadays , i hardly talk to my dad .
shit . klw bbual . mcm nk perang gitu .
ah g mampos . aslkan , i din do the things you dun like .
grr . tkde mud arh nk blog .
penat + angry2 .

bye !

hey hey (:

i love the new me . (:
i love it , cus im new (:
IVE MOVED ON . and i dont need anybody to help me .
i can stand up on myself when i fall down , i DONT need anbody to cheer me up .
or acting one . haha . or like acting sympathy when see me down like hell .
its my life , i DONT need that pathetic act of urs .
especially GUYS who come and go . haha . whatever ~

enjoying my life , and was damn busy with work .
and that helps (:
now pokai , cannot buy cigg , sheesh . tkpe2 .
chhee ade , her full name cherry (:
nyaha .

was supposed to meet elfi today but he demam .
haha , tu la . sape sroh riding mlm2 bute , beh mandi ujan .
pdn muke . gahaha .

hehe , ntg to blog about actually , leading a normal life jek .
kla , tml 1o hrs kje . haha .
nk tdo bye (:

today was supposed to go out with udy but last min postpone .
quarrel with mum early in the morning , setakat nak pergi amek passport . -.-"
hack care then went back to sleep , woke up when he text me and scolded me .
shall not post about this . cried for about 2 hrs in bed when the cramps started .
mum thought i cried about the cramps , so she buat bodoh . but only god knows what happen .
i wonder when shall it be a day when i woke up smiling and feels good in life ?

dear god , i beg forgiveness from you . i know this is one dugaan for me and i redha . im just a human being , powerless and i cant do anything . but i know , u know whats the best for me . so im leaving it in ur hands . i prayed that im safe in this earth and world thereafter , you're my strength . amin .

went to ICA with mum and eat at tekka .
but still i keep thinking about him . i remember when we said it together that we like air bandung , and winnie the pooh . what's worst im hurt by two guys at one time . its not fair but i accept with both hands and hide my face with tears . double hurt , sheesh . he's the one who picked me up when im down but in the end he did the same as my ex . whatever it is , im happy when and thank you for all ur effort . you are still my friend , forever .

trust me , i will change with my own , and not because of you . cus , u hurt me .

updates updates . haha . b shift is totally tiring . gosh .
10am - 1opm . shucks ( the word use by leilani )
pretty okay , monday's blues and my department hit our sales target (:
our sales was 2k plus , and the target is 1.5k (: yay [!]
eventhough not many staffs on the sales floor but we manage it somehow .
joana my colleague will be leaving us and spore , back to phi . idk why im crying guess she's crying cus she say she will be missing us and m&s . hey , she's the 1st one to tegor me .
"hey , ure new here ? (: im joana (: and you are ?"
hahah , i miss you beb , tc darlings . come back spore okay (:

haha , im thinking of migrating , don't know if that will be true , but somehow . i wanted to .
not now , maybe in future times . haha , chey ! migrate .

does smoking makes ur heart like pain?
haha , stupid question , but eh ? betol ???
i don't know la , but like makin terok pulak aku ni .
1 pack cn last for 2 days , shucks . control beb .
kate nak quit . hahahah . belo .
yay (: tml off so im going out to relax my self .
stress about work , life , love life . and what is going on in my life . my future ?
nah , how to face the future if now already sucks . but what to do thats life .
face it , then you'll know it , learn from it .
kak along qoute ;" in life you must taste the bitter life URSELF , bile dah terhantuk sendiri aru tau kan ? mcm kak along , tau2 da kahwin . hahaha"

budak gile , kla , goodnites (:
anw , thks for the ppl who tagged me .

GET A LIFE (:

kk , si begong ni yang pat gambar , my ex .
haha , herie his adik told me yang this june he's getting engaged (:
and they jemput me and sha to come . haha . tengok la yer .
congrats syed (:
wish you all the best , i miss you lots .
take care bro (:

spammers are haters . whatever it is . i can't force people to like me . or to love me .
up to them la okay . if i did make anybody angry . pls forgive me from head to toe .

now im going to post clean blog as usual , tadi tu tgh hot . haix .
work today was fun (:
i love their company . everybody . but there's still gossips around .
normal la kan , every job has that .
now i know , diff department there's will always be one mangsa .
haha , she/he will not be liked by someone or others staff (:

sheesh , i hope im fine in their eyes .
part timer aje ape .
sunday , as usual . busy nak gila . fitting room sesak .
macam2 perangai , ni la tu la . hahas .
and mariam kene jadi food promoter . hahaha . kekek pe .
one thing about her , she always call me kecik .
ya allah , i know la she older then me . tk kecik , makcik . then nampak mesti pipi i die singgah .
kene cubit uh ape lagi . haha . she's sweet(:
ladies department is exciting eventhough its tiring . gerek laa (:

then now i know that kak along works in vivo (:
yay ! then if like that hari2 can meet die .
she's the best cuz if you wane know (:
all the bitter sweet life she had once , she will always share and advise us (:
haha , oi bila nak ada anak ni (:
see ya around kak (:
terserempak dengan cuz ku agy satu .
si shidah ni , haha . ane je merayap .
jadi tour guide ke (:

i miss my cuz alot . hahas . and my nenek too . her rendang and sambal udang .
heaven oi , esp sambal goreng nenek (:
i miss you nenek (:

fendi contact me back , sanggup cari at imesh and all .
hahaha , budak gila .
one go two return . but him ?
i seriously hate vivo . and the no smoking poster really kills me .
rabak abes ! grr .

that all , goodnights (:
still waiting for you to text me.

i seriously got no mood . and don't know who's the fucker who dirtied my blog .
im tired and sick . and that fucker just adding the sum to it .
seriously ah eh , don't be a fucker busted who go spamming others people tagboard .
like no life gitu . pergi buat blog uh then talk about all the person you hate .
as if you , your own self is perfect . kiwak , prangai macam sial per .

aku peh blog aku peh suke ah . cibai .
i don't have an idea kau siape but you are just making my night worst .
im here safely home to blog about my daily life . there you speak like a cibai .
if berani tell me who you are uh . pukimak peh prangai . macam la kau byk peh bagus .
whatever la eh . you are just like one of the busteds who ruin my life .

pergi mati ah semue . satu2 prangai macam SIAL .

its been a day that you're leaving me .
can i just say its sucks ? there u go and have fun while im dead worried .
and at last i was scolded . okay fine (!)
i don't know what u guys are thinking . u say this and that but in the end .
goodness im working , if not i'll be dead at home .
thinking about all this shit , its sickening . totally .
life's been a drag one recently , so do my girlfriend .

how can i not say all guys are the same .
you don't even care about what i feel . and is it that difficult to text me . $0.05?
sheesh , not even a sorry . well dude , if you say im just like your ex .
maybe we are the same , but different motive . i care for you . but idk about her .
im really tired of this .
i got no time to think about this .
im down with fever , and my stomach hurts .
sheesh , ape nye tidak , whole day air con .
haix .
the one has left me for good . but still im stupidly waiting .
whatever la (!)

if there's a machine or magic that can make my brain to forget all this hurtful moments .
can i have one pls ? im in need of that .
atyra says ; [is it true that once that person find something much more worth it ,they will put aside their loved ones ?]
i bet this is true for him , who once said that im not important in his life . even a lil bit .

that's all , goodnight .
im quiting soon , smoke-free .

im hanging my leg while posting this post .
serious shit , i thought work is easy cus times are bad nowadays , but still the crowd was on .
and i hate my department , cus i have to run here and there , replenish my stock at the
fitting room .
and i work like im a full timer , come on . i have to mend the fitting room , cashier , replenishing attend customer . oh pls . now tell me that i should be the employee of the month , chey ~
but if the customer makes my day , that hard work is all pay off (:
and today (!) being a 2nd day of my work , i got a complain by my sup .
sheesh , stupid reason though , just bcus , i din wear a make up and put on a lipstick .
eew , i don wear lipstick . and as a punishment , i have to her's which is like bright red , and my colleagues laugh their throat out . they say , i look like an aunty . wth ~ and i was NOT supposed to remove it until my 1st break . my goodness (!) i hate you sup ! haha .

i love everyone at work , they were really suprised when i came to work on thursday .
i got a hug and lots of kisses from them (:
perempuan la okay (: but joana and mike had to leave , no wonder you all call me back . heh .
the 1st thing they do is ;
"shikin !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my god , why are u here ? you sick ?"
hahahaa , i love you la guys , and seriously do .
ive been cutting down my cigg , and thinking of to quit it , cus i keep having a bad headache after smoking . sheesh .
joy ; hey beb , u smoke like real hell , so fast ? panget ~
haha . ive learn new word too (:

1) panget
2) baboi
3) ungui
4) matikas alung naa
5) mahal kita
6) matabaak
7) payatut

search those word if u wanne know the meaning (:
haha , okay , great . im cleaning off the make up i was forced to put .
and sleep . yeah tml off (:

to that boy , god ans my prayers and its ur rezeki anyway .
congratulations that you've passed .

to that someone whom it may concerns ,
thks for sending me to work .

and to that giler ,
i be going home with you . IF i want .

and to that guy ,
haha , stop calling me monyet .
and u look selekeh (:
sheesh , thks dropping by to see me at work .
thats sweet of you .

finally , im going to sleep .
and i hope , god will answer my 2nd prayer that ive made .
i be waiting for your return .
miss you .

given by her parents the name of shikin .
born in kk hospital , chey ~ dada , cut the crap introduction .

today's training was half way cancel cus the trainer is sick .
so i went off real damn early , it was like 1 hr of training .
sharks ~ puas hati tak payah pergi kan .
so with my eagerness to do my digital perm , i focerd my bff , rushdy to accompany me , but with a deal . big mac satu .
grr , but its okay (: lunch price (: so we gobble up the burger since we both are hungry . then we went to the salon .
i wanted to do the cheaper dg perm , but my hair was a thrash , come on . i have yet cut since last year oi . aper ke tidak , stress about o level stuffs . haha . so since i have my 4th pay i pamper my hair to a ex hair treament . total spend . $200. kerja gila . haha , but okla , cut + taking out my hair extension + 2 types of treament + dg perm + shampoo + lotion . so i think its a worthwhile spend (:
& im going to highlight my hair , but err . i haven't think enuf cus i still remember , "kalau mak u kasi , i kasi" . hahahaha . im going to start my work tomorrow . & damn , i hope i can wake up early , nasib baik the pioneer station was really near with my house . so cn delay2 la (: im still puzzled by him . goodness . anw , ive invited eqa for my wild idea , of duet-ing and singing our throat out . haha , saje2 je . since we both have yet to start school . spend time together la kan . so gf , im waiting for you . (: and don't forget to bring a camera along . haha , another merepekness of me . lepaking with her & sing . ily sis . (: talking about sis , i miss my murny & sha . heh , miss them cus they've promised to shop with me . im waiting guys ! thats all . goodnight . before that . i love this song , esp the part when it says ,
"When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted"

today is the last day im going to sleep late and wake up early . hahaha .
to practise waking up early cus school starting soon . (:
and plus my working shift . urgh ~
amazingly and suprisingly , ive got my 4th pay (!)
happy giler oi , igt kan kering kontang . haha . so that money will be my expenses .
and adult fare is sickening .
the NO SMOKING SIGN . is worst still case .
u can't smoke in most open space . and it totally sucks .
puas hati ckp , all people tk payah smoke -.-"

as being a good homed-teacher + annoying sister .
i help my lil bro to do up his project but with my sungguh tk favourite topic .
GLOBAL WARMING . mak ai . must crack2 my brain oi .
sheesh , geography da lah fail . hahaha .
but in the end , he's happy .
as long die suke aku pon suke la (:

so people i won't be like updating like i used to .
work started , cnfm lengit .haha .
goodnite . (:

but before that , he send me this song . im puzzled . seriously . thks btw , this song is nice . tc alep (:
and if were to stick with each other , its our 1 month anniversary . plus today , 1 mth 1 day . hahahah .

haha , i don't know how many times im changing my skin . including this last skin of mine is the 5th time if im not wrong . haha , semangat edit oi , cus the pic is too big , and cannot see the vespa . haha .
and i don't know why the hell im putting someone's favourite bikes . okay , not takling about him . tmr , is the last day im going to wake up late . sheesh . thursday shift is from 10am - 10pm . 8 hrs la seh . haha , normal (: had a tiff with daddy .
he's really getting on my nerves seh .
urgh ~ nvrmind , thurs im working .
hahahahahahaha . then got this one guy age 15 kerek nak mampos . we chat at msn and i ask him to add me at tagged .
den he say , taknk uh , u tak popular .
then i say , tulah ,i tk popular la . hw bt i add you (: ...... then the BOY say ,
kiwak , you hotstuff peh ? 1000 frens ?
hahahahah ! eh budak , kau kental arh seh . that's all people , goodnight (:

finally if im not wrong .
its been 1 week plus since we've broke up .
but still eventhough ive said ive move on .
but truthfully i haven't .
i still kept waiting for your msg .
still thinking about what are you doing now .
how's ur practical going on .
have you eaten or not .
& many more .
eventhough i just get to know you . but what's your routine keep haunting me .
i miss the way u scold me & how miang you can be .
i miss the way u pujok me when im mad at you .
we have not been talking on the phone till late night bcus u're studying .
and when the time i waited for you to online .

i know you may say i am craping alot .
but i really miss you .
now , uve blocked me in your msn .
making me wondering whr have you been . and how are you doing .
why are u making me this way .
as simple u can say . kite tak ade jodoh .
tp KENAPE .
don bedek me alep , cus in every brk up thrs always a reason .
and on every faded love thrs always a reason too .
why are you torturing me .
what have i done to you till i deserve this ?
why you say im your love of your life but in the end u dump me .
why you put god as the blame .

yes , god did this .
TO MAKE US GROW STRONGER .
TO GUIDE US THROUGH & SHOW US WHAT IS LOVE IS .
but you don't see that .
you don't . you're blinded within urself .
you don't treasure what people have given to you .
& you don't treasure what GOD give you . me .
HE meet you and me .
for you to share your life with me .
but you throw me . out of your life .

i cnt write no more .

ya allah , aku memohon pada mu . tabahkan lah hatiku ya allah .
hapuskan lah orang-orang yang kejam . kuatkan lah semangat aku ya allah .
selamatkan lah aku dari mala petaka . demi mu ya allah , manusia yg kau cipta ini amat kejam .
aku mohon ya allah , tabahkan lah hatiku ya allah . amin ya rabbal a'lamin .

AIN'T GOT NO TIME FOR NO HATERS .

work/school/lepak/shopping/studying/SMILE .
that's my life .
exit ways to all BIG TIME CB FCUKER boys .

sha qoute - big time CB.
zayid qoute - uat malu kaum lelaki.
murny quote - flying pigs.
my quote - FCUK the bean.

whats yours ? (:

12 march come quick .
im freaking bored at home . & i wanne work . cepatan dong .
hahas . a friend of mine strike a lightning on top of my head &
made me realise how foolish am i .
sheesh , okay thats one big clap for her .

i don't want to brag about her r'ship but mine .
i finally see what am i doing since 10feb with him .
now i realised my mistake . sheesh .
nevermind , what is past is already past .
what i can see is the future now .

i promised that i won't be such a non-matured lady .
yeah , i know he's been busy & all & i just don't see how's busy he is .
instead i keep bugging him just to desire my attention .
hahaha , i guess im just being lame . but wait , the sitting at home part is making me this way .
so don't wronged me (: if i were to work or school i guess i won't be like that (:
& the trust2 is soo not my favourite .
well , i guess is not that i don't trust him BUT the way he show me like acuh tk acuh like that .
mcm , eh ppm tu kau peh pasal uh eh.

so tkkn nak always blame me right , both party is at fault .
if ur ego-ness control then you might say i salah la .
sheesh , & why the hack im writing this ?
but whatever it is . okay , ive realised & im so gonna CHANGE .
if i were to have a boyfriend , trust me . i won't be the same .
but show me that you ain't the same kind of guy whom i know .
if thats happen , ima show my true colour , chey , tu part bedek .

but one thing is , im sorry if im being so lame shitto .
ahaha , guess i just love you so much .
but now its over .
& hell yeah , my stupid ex is damn handsome sia .
hahah , syed sufian (:
my dream guy that has gone .
looking forward to a NEW me .
& so the shopping part with murny love .
thats all (:

hello (:
hahah , i don't know im kinda happy . but its okay kan .
rather then i keep crying .

thank you people for being concern about me .
thanks once again . i appreciate that effort you showed very much .
shikin tetap shikin . haha . tak berubah dari dulu .
my babylove said , im being too friendly . ade je org mintak no . hahha .
& other part he's jealous . tak salah ape . IM single
but im not gonna be like that if im attached to you k dearest (:

kinda bored , haha & so deadly tired .
ive found this video in youtube .
haha , lame oi tk dgr lagu ni . (;
kalau acap ade cnfm die cakap .

basi arh shikin . :P

as what my gf & bf been asking me too .
im moving on (: yay , fcuk off with him . im getting my new life yeah .
crying for stupid people aint a right choice . damn right he's not my MR right .
sheesh , love is blind (:

many people say , i deserve someone better . i think so .
& not denying or kerek-ing .
after the day i went back to my single life .
my long mat2 motor friend came back searching for me . haha .
we lost contact cus dey know im att with him .
its so fun contacting dem back . cuz they ain't the mat2 rep type la . its just that dey ade motor .
some even car . NOT materialistic & no way . but one of them say .
" this bike or car kan , not for perempuan kite uh . tp utk diri kite psl kite kerje pe. kiwak , tk sanggop sia naek mrt dgn made in china peh org "
hahahaha , arab said that (:

imissmybabyboy .
he's been working like whole night .
and at day he sleep(:
i told him i be working soon and skola .
" gerek la , then everyday i can meet you (: i fetch you from work "
oh , pls naek motor mlm2 sejuk oi .. & don't waste ur minyak la .
frm vivo to jurong n from jurong to changi .
sheesh , but he said its okay (:
so i guess that will be our first step which is going to second .

can't wait to start work (:
& dasar kau lelaki dayus .

goodnight ;)

whenever im happy there's always bad things prone to happen .
again , im crying . cry & cry & cry .
stupid siak , stop it seh shikin . dun be stupid .
die da ckp peh yg die tknk kau . uatpe kau nangis . jgn jadi bodoh la.
kau ni cepat sangat percaye orang . simpati smp maut . lupe kn die la .
klw die jantan die tk akan uat kau mcm gini pe . da lah shikin . stop crying la.
have your life , live it to the fullest . shop & splurge on urself . jangan pk sgt psl lelaki ni .
have a time break . no rushing . banyak lagy laki kt luar . die tk gune . ego . penting kan diri sendiri . dayus . buat bodoh sudah . da sudah move on ......

-another side of her

updates for today (:

i got a call from jasmine , asking me to work again (:
& i was totally overjoyed . alhamdullilah . ALLAH answers my prayers at last .
u see , i dont want to rot at home without any penny in my wallet .(:
so i'll be starting working at 12 march .
marks & spencer vivo city lagi (: & im lovin' it cus i have my geng thr . chey ~
but 1 thing i notice i was put under ladies/per una/lingerie .
mati peh ~ i so hate that ladies2 .
pening maut oi cari all the baju2 . & worst case i have to jage the fitting room .
like WHAT! tapi i think ok la , summer season what (:
& i chop a pair of bottom there . heheh .

so a little un-plan outing with gf murny cus she says she's free .
so we plan that after we sign my contract i nak go perm rambut .
she do soft rebonding .
do yadayadayada here & there .
& we END UP buying a dress each .
cheap la seh . $33.90 (:
& we are SO looking foward in 2 weeks time for new arrival .
haha . it was the first time murny bought a pack of cigarette .
chep , siap a wish happy birthday from the owner of the shop agy . (kne tunjuk IC dok)
but ok apa . 18 . da legal .(:
& we smoke our way ....
both wearing very so the slack . & so what ! haha .

songs changed cus i think i be moving on quite fast .
i got myself a job & i be busy as usual .
without noticing school starts the next day when my contract finishes .
so i like ..... (:
sheesh , i bet he's moved on .
eh dala , pikir pasal die uatpe eh .
haix ... hope he's fine ... (:
for now , im enjoying my life being a single babe .
not bad what . hahaha . live your life .

kk , thats for today .
my leg are shouting (awww , i need a breakkk ..!) chey bedek . haha
*HISHAM LOVE SICK OII* (:

corrupt corrupt .
a coversation between my aunty & uncle & dad . mum tk dgr (:
aunty : ahh .. ibu ayah da tau ? haiyo , ni lah bdk2 skg . cpt2 da matair .
me: shh !
uncle : haha , arh zul . ni la anak kau . sape tah name bdk laki tu..
me: eh2 . merepeksss...
aunty: no , u got tell me . haha , so hw u & alep ? bile nak panggil die dtg ?
me: aiyo amaa , dala . don't talk about him . *geram face*
aunty: heartbroken la ni . u okay ?
me: *kept quiet* dad: *give me a stern look + *pathetic*
i walk off to dapur & cuci pinggan . then my aunty came .
aunty: kin , what telah happen?
me: nah , kite da break .
aunty: wah . thats fast ? aru that time stead kan ?
me: uh2 . da la cik lela . biarla .
aunty: kin , who asked for it? & whats the reason ?
me: *lap2 tangan2* me . cus i nak belajar la cik lela .
aunty: ler , betol ke bedek ni?
*silent went on & zoom my room*
aunty: kin , cik lela tau kau bedek .
me: entahla eh . biarla .. its already past . he no longer love me.
aunty: sudahlah , cik lela gone this through before . rileks ok? ayah tau?
me: uh2 , ikin rase la . beh cik madi sume kecoh2 tadi . nsb baek ibu tk dgr .
aunty: be strong k kin (: nnt kan da skola .
me: *smile* beh cik lela dulu dgn cik madi how ?
aunty: cik madi umur 20 aru serious dgn cik lela . smp ke kawin .
me: hmm . die pon 20 jugak . sudahla . nnt tk pasal ade air mate . haha!
aunty: eleh ni budak . sudahlah . biarkan aje . msh muda lagi .

then she give me a hug .
& we continue talking about my other cuz relationship (:

went toica & upgrade my passport .
sheesh , im getting fatter !
gudnites .

; actually the conversation is much longer , but i shorten it up . so i guess my aunty knows what actually happened. & my aunty also say kirim salam to him . & she hope he'll be happy with other girls . she say , 1 piece of advise . kalau sayang anak dare org , jage hati die & kehormatan die . insyallah kekal dunie akhirat .(:

& hell yeah . got this one apachi [!]
zoom people (:

*sempat peh shikin*

he text me (:
saying he passed his prac 7 .
alhamdulillah (: congrats dear .
save up for your last test okay (:
he did text me just now , & i was smiling like all the way .
then things went wrong at home .
dad reached home & scold me just because i put a code in my phone . wtf ~
& then mum was like all day hot with me .
i fought with my lil bro over some stupid things .
but ended up i was scolded by my mum . again ! like siall ....
& i got no one to pour out except my blog which i don't think he'll read .
he's happy out there but me like a girl with no life . sheesh .
why must all this things happen . haix ..

cuzin sha did ask me to go interview but herself TIDO.
rabak la lu . hahahah .

nevermind , here's the picture i owe you .
jemputan & the birthday KIDS.
sha , im still waiting for the video .(:

icantstopmissingyou .

a day of leading a single life .
back to normal .
sheesh ,ive realised that my last post was too wordy .
haha , like jiwang nah .

slowly moving on .
if not by this time he's asleep .
& before he sleeps he will online for awhile donnoe doing what .
monday routine , what is he doing eh ? takraw ?
sheesh , nvm .
its all over .

im waiting for sha's suprised birthday video .
quick ! i wane update.
& i shall post my sunday event soon(:

that all , short & simple.
imissyoudearly.

we are through . 10-02-09 . gone .
2 weeks & 6 days .
nomatter how hard i cry , he's gone . away from my life .
the reason is he have no time for me .
indeed a good reason . a perfect solution for us two .
he says god forbid us to be together . but with god , we met & yet we broke up .
don't wrong GOD cus he's the one who create adam & hawa & create love between them two .
i don't think why we can't solve this mess . when there's problem there's always a solution .
but when there's no love , thats it . end up with a break up . & tears .
so i guess you don't love me anymore don't you .
its okay , i must be strong . i know its hard but i have to .
u left me for no reason .
maybe im not up to your standard . not that pretty as others . not CUN like others .
but one assurance , they cannot be like what i am . they may have the looks .
but NOT my attitude . u can NEVER find .

thanks for the time u tried to spend with me .
thanks for making me in love again .
thanks for the post that ive been forcing you to write .
thanks for the name shikinalep. sedap kn ? (:

but now all gone .
tkpela , biar org buat kite jgn kite buat org .
sabar shikin , ini semue dugaan . hidup penuh onak dan duri .
if u are reading this . this is for you .

you are a great person with full of missions in your life .
you hate ur dad cus he ruin your life , & thats why u want to change it .
by studying & change ur fate . & have a good life .
thats why you say , ur priority is ur future & things that can make you be a successfull person .
THEN you think about your future girlfriend .
little that you know , im willing to spend my life with you together & be the happiest person upon seeing you succeed .
but little that u realise u hurt me most .
i don't know if this is a revenge or what . but seriously .
if this is your mindset , remove it dear . give your time a break .

you once been hurt & you know yourself how hurtful it is .
i really didn't know that you're an heartless person .
again , im sorry if all this while i did something that hurt you .
maybe , i don't trust you . but i did my best .
& i even give you most of my password . cus i trust you and i love you only .
but this is what i get in return .
i give you my support & i even dig out my savings for your prac .
i sacrifice my needs to fulfil ur needs .
& if u want to know , you're the 1st person i did that .
cus , ily . senang susah same2 . but you did not realised that .
i buy for you something to eat cus i know you don't have the time to eat & often got headache .
but again u did not realise that .
im here not to ungkit but i want you to see .

my dear alep ,

Praying for the day to come when all your hustlin' days are done
Then find a girl and fall in love
A special someone that you know you can trust
But you ain't got time
It's your way of life
And you know that one day
You'll pay the price
So, hope you choose life over death and live your dream
Don't learn the lesson hope you see that someone loves you
Change your life never try to hurt you
Mend your heart and won't desert you
Don't you think you're ever asking too much

i copy this from the song im hearing .
thats all (:

mornings (:

a new morning a new life .
sheesh . insyaallah . amin (:
i hope yesterday was the last time im going to cry for someone like him .
things were normal . NORMAL GF . normal relationships . everything is normal .
uh uh uh . he wants it this way . imma give him the way he wants (:
people say im being a possessive lover . a person who does'nt give her bf the freedom he wants .
hell yeah , what are they talking about .
a possessive lover ? dgn semangatnye i look up the kamus (:
& found out its true ! but NOT true cus i know myself . & for all the 35 ex's i have . NONE complain cus i didn"t do that .
of course ! i DID NOT do that . simple cus they give what i want & i give what they want .
amazingly , most gfs don't really give the permission for their bf to go club & stfs like that .
& gfs will kinda show the UN-happiness when the bf spend time mostly with their friends .
but SHIKIN is NOT that kind .
she plays with the rule ; kau nak buat ape kau punye suke but inform me ur whereabouts . aku trust kau jgn smp aku tangkap kau.
simple ? simple as 123 (:
hurhur . ;]

what people say is true . they DON'T prioritise their gf instead their career & their family .
yah , i should nod and agree with this statement . thinking in a kakak2 way . its true (:
we can't live with just love . we need money . we need to have savings . & marry
but from friendship we build to couples . is a big jump .
relationships is like something where we have to face many obtacles and strengthen ourselves .
then from there we learn the hard way . and results in positive way .
TOGETHER . we will succeed . heh . (sch's motto) *big smileeee*
we need both hands to clap . a good communications & the time to commit .
even though you don't have the time but atleast squeeze a tiny miny little time of yours to the person you love .
she ought to understand right ?
talk to her & tell her .
instead they rather spend their time sleeping & hack care about their gf . ugrh~
people have their limits . you can't push that limit to the max .
we have FEELINGS . idk about you la .

i just don't understand why in the 1st place people stead .
just to have that name ? or evny people ? or what ?
sheesh , telling them that i want you to my gf or vice versa is a BIG commitment .
like how u say , teacher i want to join dance . npcc . ncc . soccer . takraw . & etc .
if you don't commit urself , gahha , out YOU go . & teacher scream at their top .
its the same right , you want to commit . then show that u are COMMITTED .
yeah , i miss npcc . mr lim & my peers . (oi , ni tkde kne mengena (:)
different people different style .
but how big different is . it came out to be the same .
we build a relationship with someone we don't know , yet we love .
like what atyra says ; we are in a r'ship is because we care for each other . we love each other .
we support each other . & share the sweet moments together .
but what i face it a disaster .

should i continue ? nah , don't think so .
sheesh , when i read back . macam composition .
hehe , who knows i'll be a writer one day . (:
a counsellor ? a lecturer ?
haha , angan2 mau lebih .
life is like that , face it . go through it .
& you'll know it .
i don't pot this because im angry or what , i just wanna let all my feelings out .
& i hope that he realised . how much i yearn for him .
come on , im going to be 18 this yr , & he 20 .
think like a matured people do what a matured people do .
no time for main2 . be serious .
urgh ! whatever la . it shall be what it shall be .

hope you are serious about US .

okay la . gtg . nk go jemputan (:
looking foward for today's outing with gfs .
muahh .

Forget about me - little bit .

Hmm
Whoaaa Oohhh
Yeahh

[Verse 1:]
You Said It Wasn't
Gonna Be Like It Was Before
Then It Happened Again
Pushing Me Back Out The Door
Thought It Would Be Forreal This Time
Love Me Forget About The Signs
So Now What Do I Do
Now, That I Know That We're Through

[Chorus:]
Wish That I Could Move On
Can't Let Go, It's Too Strong
Just Like That And Then You're Gone
Is This How You Wanted It To Be
Everything You Had To Say
Sent The Tears Right Down My Face
Now I'm Trying To Escape
The Misery
Why Don't You Love Me
The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You're Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It Quickly
Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin
If You Don't Wanna Stick Around
Then, Baby, Forget About Me

[Verse 2:]
Too Late, Sorry
I Didn't Even Have The Chance
You Said You Were Happy
Baby, I Don't Understand
Gave You Everything You Asked For
And Was Ready To Give A Lot More
I Would've Given The World
Right In The Palm Of Your Hand

[Chorus:]
Wish That I Could Move On
Can't Let Go, It's Too Strong
Just Like That And Then You're Gone
Is This How You Wanted It To Be
Everything You Had To Say
Sent The Tears Right Down My Face
Now I'm Trying To Escape
The Misery
Why Don't You Love Me
The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You're Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It Quickly
Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin
If You Don't Wanna Stick Around
Then, Baby, Forget About Me

[Hook:]
Boy, My Heart Was True
And That You Can't Deny
Don't Be A Fool
And Walk Away From All The Lies
It's Up To You
Cause Heaven Knows I've Tried
Tell Me You're Still In Love
Yeahhhh Ohh

Why Don't You Love Me
The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You're Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It Quickly
Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin
If You Don't Wanna Stick Around
Then, Baby, Forget About Me
Forget About Me...