im flying off in 1 hr time .
yahoo .
pray for my safety and pray for me to come back in one piece.
i miss you all people .

i'll be back in 22 june. (:

jaz , i miss you baby . really do .

that's my new hair.
tomorrow i'll be flying off at 3 am frm singapore . (:
and yet i haven't finish packing .
huahua, lazybumpers.

me & nizar jazli no more attached.
finally , he asked for it.
i can't deny that ive cried but i have GUY friends along to cheer me up .
i don't need you my dear. plain jerk.
|baby jack-jack| - he's dating me now.
|shahrulnizam| - trying to catch my attention.
|haniff| - no comments.
|rushydii| - still here with me but not as normal.
|didi| - still intact with me (my bff)
|ayul| - busy working.
|amy angkongsiao| - no comment too.
|fazico| - anak cina.
|wawan| - masih cute mcm dulu.
|zayid| - setan nye budak! haha. syg kau! (:

so me or you . adios .

today is my one month anniversary with him.
but its nothing special instead i ask for a break up.

i can't stand him totally. fuck ~
i meet apit up , a new friend and i still have this feelings it might be boyfriend's friends.
whatever ! can i have my single life back please?

work was okay ,
ah soe was really cheeky . haha .
but accpetable , he's definitely cute !
he rides sp and he is definitely from a rich family .
awww .
but his so called girlfriend. haha. irritating busted !
okay enough , i hate you boyfriend .
i need a break ~

like finally im out of the dance crew.
it was bad of me but i have too cus i dowan to be a bad daughter.
what ibu had to say , i have to follow .
i have to left my crew in the midst of the competition.
im sorry girlfriends , i don't ask for this to happen but there must be a reason for this.
i hope the best for you all and you girls rocks ! (:

a special note for you all.
ira ; my hawt scandal , ur the leader. pls mind everyone feelings. (:
syuu ; my sis , pls LOOK at your audience .(:
nana ; bontot tak perlu ! you can dance behbey ! (:
myra ; shake2 uhk , hee. sorry dah tak boleh join (:
lulu ; don't ever give up (:
fya ; im sorry beb , wa tak boleh angkat lu lagi (:
iqa ; no comment uh mrs fey (:

from the bottom of my heart , im sorry guys .

wrapping up with today's event , after school went to tamp's mac with daya & syuu .
have some light dish before heading to the muslimah salon .
i took 293 (green), and amazingly i still remember where to stop and all.
awww, i miss my place where i grow up and where i hang around with my pri sch friends.
(:

sadly , i had my hair cut short , somehow looks like "bob" .
dyed back black & do some effective treatment .
and of course its all muslimah and the service was A star .
however the colour doesn't totally look black got some brownish and its nice ! (:
short and cute and neat . aww .
but boyfriend was unhappy cus he loves my long hair .
insyaallah he's okay when we meet up .
i miss you sweetheart .

can i continue some other years .
i need a good sleep .
tommorow working ! (:

it's been decades since i've updated .
so which one shall i start first ?

Family ;

wednesday was a hell night for me , i was caught smoking by ibu and was fucked upside down .
continued by abah and i regret .
totally , my freedom was pulled back my privacy and all including school.
but with much strength and patience i prayed to ALLAH and he answered .
alhamdulillah , syukur everything went back to normal .
i went to school as today was a last day for HN CHT. (:
i got a hug from my girlfriends.
i was nearly to tears cus i cant imagine life without education .
what if my husband were to left me hanging and i have to support myself or my kids?
now i realised how much education is important and being independent helps. (:
ibu nearly give up hope on me but somehow no matter what our loves can't be divided .
i need ibu's doa for my life and thereafter .

so with this lesson i learned enough .
im going to be 18 years old and i need to think .
enjoy is my another part but my other part is for my family needs and my future.
enough of my degil-ness & rebelious towards them .
insyaallah , i will change slowly starting with telling them the truth .
amin.

i know i don't deserve him.
i know but i cant do anything.

hate me leave me.
don't torture me.

boyfriend you are a pain .

mornings . (:
hee , since i overslept. this is what im doing .

last saturday , syuu , nana , iqa & me .went for this sundown marathon.
sponsor by adidas n 1oo plus & yadayada.
it was heavenly fun , we overnight and my jiwe gf ira come down and ton with us plus mr "respect your father"
hahahaha , nel , her ex. (:
so we laugh all the way till 4am+ .
but before that syahril came down and pass us the pizza he made at work.
and boyfriend come down too.
this part is total funny , he come down and was already shocked to see ol the TPs.
mat rempit ler katekn , so his pipe ni tk lepas.
and i was scolded for giving him wrong direction. :P
okay then i was hungry , and we decided to eat at changi village .
unfortunately i have not enough cash and STUPID posb cant dispense any cash too.
so we kinda walk a distant round and round and finally hail a cab and went to loyang point.
urgh~
so that was the story and we spent 1hr+ just to keluar kan duet.
sumpah , we both eat BUROK.
both dosent eat veg and i dont eat kerang. so he lantak my kerang ended up with stomach ache.

after the meet up with ira , i slept like bangla siot , with cardboard everywhere.
hehe , i cant take it anymore. any places i sit or lie i will surely sleep.
i sumpah i sleep like a pig waking up with a masam face then sleep back.
syuu n nana knew my secret.

and we headed home but i didnt bring my keys so i went to boyfreind house for awhile and slept thr.
he sent me home and i continue my dreams.

i swear, i had fun with boyfriend and my gfs.
can we ton again. but bring my pillows. (: