today was supposed to go out with udy but last min postpone .
quarrel with mum early in the morning , setakat nak pergi amek passport . -.-"
hack care then went back to sleep , woke up when he text me and scolded me .
shall not post about this . cried for about 2 hrs in bed when the cramps started .
mum thought i cried about the cramps , so she buat bodoh . but only god knows what happen .
i wonder when shall it be a day when i woke up smiling and feels good in life ?

dear god , i beg forgiveness from you . i know this is one dugaan for me and i redha . im just a human being , powerless and i cant do anything . but i know , u know whats the best for me . so im leaving it in ur hands . i prayed that im safe in this earth and world thereafter , you're my strength . amin .

went to ICA with mum and eat at tekka .
but still i keep thinking about him . i remember when we said it together that we like air bandung , and winnie the pooh . what's worst im hurt by two guys at one time . its not fair but i accept with both hands and hide my face with tears . double hurt , sheesh . he's the one who picked me up when im down but in the end he did the same as my ex . whatever it is , im happy when and thank you for all ur effort . you are still my friend , forever .

trust me , i will change with my own , and not because of you . cus , u hurt me .