we are through . 10-02-09 . gone .
2 weeks & 6 days .
nomatter how hard i cry , he's gone . away from my life .
the reason is he have no time for me .
indeed a good reason . a perfect solution for us two .
he says god forbid us to be together . but with god , we met & yet we broke up .
don't wrong GOD cus he's the one who create adam & hawa & create love between them two .
i don't think why we can't solve this mess . when there's problem there's always a solution .
but when there's no love , thats it . end up with a break up . & tears .
so i guess you don't love me anymore don't you .
its okay , i must be strong . i know its hard but i have to .
u left me for no reason .
maybe im not up to your standard . not that pretty as others . not CUN like others .
but one assurance , they cannot be like what i am . they may have the looks .
but NOT my attitude . u can NEVER find .

thanks for the time u tried to spend with me .
thanks for making me in love again .
thanks for the post that ive been forcing you to write .
thanks for the name shikinalep. sedap kn ? (:

but now all gone .
tkpela , biar org buat kite jgn kite buat org .
sabar shikin , ini semue dugaan . hidup penuh onak dan duri .
if u are reading this . this is for you .

you are a great person with full of missions in your life .
you hate ur dad cus he ruin your life , & thats why u want to change it .
by studying & change ur fate . & have a good life .
thats why you say , ur priority is ur future & things that can make you be a successfull person .
THEN you think about your future girlfriend .
little that you know , im willing to spend my life with you together & be the happiest person upon seeing you succeed .
but little that u realise u hurt me most .
i don't know if this is a revenge or what . but seriously .
if this is your mindset , remove it dear . give your time a break .

you once been hurt & you know yourself how hurtful it is .
i really didn't know that you're an heartless person .
again , im sorry if all this while i did something that hurt you .
maybe , i don't trust you . but i did my best .
& i even give you most of my password . cus i trust you and i love you only .
but this is what i get in return .
i give you my support & i even dig out my savings for your prac .
i sacrifice my needs to fulfil ur needs .
& if u want to know , you're the 1st person i did that .
cus , ily . senang susah same2 . but you did not realised that .
i buy for you something to eat cus i know you don't have the time to eat & often got headache .
but again u did not realise that .
im here not to ungkit but i want you to see .

my dear alep ,

Praying for the day to come when all your hustlin' days are done
Then find a girl and fall in love
A special someone that you know you can trust
But you ain't got time
It's your way of life
And you know that one day
You'll pay the price
So, hope you choose life over death and live your dream
Don't learn the lesson hope you see that someone loves you
Change your life never try to hurt you
Mend your heart and won't desert you
Don't you think you're ever asking too much

i copy this from the song im hearing .
thats all (: