i don't know why im having this kind of feeling which i hope it doesn't come true for like the umpteen times in my life and i hate it. its called the feeling of being loved and to love someone.
To that someone; i've been mirror-ing myself and i know who i am you life. yes its true we are not having that relationship or somewhat the status but somehow we knew that inside each other what we are feeling. so i ain't gonna like control who is your friends and all, i know u gave me that freedom and i ain't misusing it but i don't know about you , cus you seems to have more social life in and out and you are well known in everyplace you go, so that explains you have alot of friends. but im diff , yes you may say i have 38 including the stupid latest ex of mine . but like i say, i never taste a relationship which is longer than 4 mths. its just that im fcuking pissed off when i saw something which i shouldn't want to bother elaborate cus its a heartpain. its not weeks ago you say this but its 24++ hours ago . but you've proved me somehow wrong. maybe my thinking is wrong but im not a "metta student". or maybe she's a long lost friend of yours. whom you want to contact back but come on. its 4 hours ago while my prepaid is low. pffft, i need an explaination puh-lease. this is ain't getting in my head. nonsense. okay, i shall stop here before tears starts to roll. goodnight.

"you say you see the loyal in me but i saw your knife"