yes. at last ive changed my songs. stupid mixpod which keep lagging. i don't know what cause it. but alhamdulillah everythings fine. a random song which somehow or rather makes me motivated and tell me not to give up but if only my name were siti. haha, a morning chat with elfi which is also known as palu catching things up, he's at his girlfriend's crib dah lah tak puasa pulak tu. ya allah, he getting married if only things will get better for he and his girlfriend. insyallah, everythings going fine. talking about marriage, one of my girlfriend will be getting maried too. im so happy for her, insyallah kau and ****** kekal sampai ke junjung pelamin. amin. yeah, dapat makan nasi minyak. nak free je. *evil laugh* so, when is my turn to get married . *chey* boyfriend pon tak ada, *my laugh* if jack were to read this, mampos aku. but its truth what b. *kening up up* and why the hell im blogging, i should be atleast reading my notes or atleast flip-flip pon jadi lah. haha. jack ; baby i need you , you're the only one i want to be with. *muka jiwang* okay, i bettr get going if not adik aku syuu mengamok. *syuu's tone* shikin !!! kau dah bangun belom??? bahahahahahaha. and to someone , TOLONG ZIP YOUR SKIRT OR PANTS BEFORE GOING OUT ! wakakkakakakakaka. ;p

school starts at 10 today and i didn;t wake up for sahur today as i was freaking sleepy and still couldn't woke up after being shouted by my mum. ended up i drank hot tea with my eyes closed and off to lala land again till 7am and was blur like sotong keep getting wrong of the time to went to school again ended up with a short nap and woke up at 7.45 and rush off to bath and stuffs. meet syuu at pioneer and bounce back from joo koon as we are being kiasu singaporeans sitting at the very 1st cabin on priority seat lagi. and for the 1st time of our life we saw this mat rep guy driving the mrt. we like *looking each at other*. yadayada to school. i think its been our ROUTINE to sleep in the train. so i think you all can guess what will we do when going to school and back from school (: and yes today break fast with family at lot 1 and i bought my kebab way before the azan starts indicating its time to buka puasa. haha. like old people says, kempunan. so since school finishes early gerlfys and me wen to tampines bazaar and start-lah my stomach bunyi mcm cina mampos. krak kruk. haha. so we went there coincidently ter-meet up saif and danial and other two more friend's of theirs which then decided to tag along. so i bought my kebab and others were busy looking at some kuih to be bought.after much rounding we decide to go home and off again to lalaland and which this time round i was the one who wake syuu up since dia dah shiok sgt tido, kesian penat. supposed to i have my AC theory test today later in the morning and i have yet to study a sgl thing. exams are like 1m away and i have yet to revise. my goodness. friday as usual be working till 10pm and i prayed hard baby will book out today night. AKU TAK TAHAN , I MISS JACK SO MUCH !!!!! okay people, goodnight. *dah ngantok!*

unfortunately, there will be no more pictures been taken as my sony ericsson w910i was spoiled can't even press a single buttons and im waiting for my hard earn pay to get me a new phone.should i buy samsung like hariz's phone?the function is not bad same like sony and it's touch screen too. small and compact and simple.(picture above) whatever its is im still unhappy cus i don't even plan or wished !to buy a phone cus i have lots of shopping to do.futhermore i have yet to buy baju kurung for this year, ibu give me an idea of not wearing baju kurung but kebaya panjang since im tall instead. about all the hari raya stuffs im not too sure cus im so packed with exams and stupid working hours which makes me apart from my parents.i usually spend time outside rather than home.so as my baby, he's been very busy with ns going in and out of HUTAN and he was sick at that point of time. so we lack of meet ups and contacts but being a good girl ive been loyal and stand by him throughout everything.eventhough no one knows how much i missed him and longed to be by his side.i myself was puzzled of the changes i've made, usually by this point of time and the attitude he gave me i would have run away to other guys and left him to desire my wishes.but when i've met him and as times changed i loved him sincerely not forgetting how we fought before and how much i hated him before i got to know him.im not the shikin whom jaz my ex call me a playa who keep changing boyfriends and its been like 2 months ive stood up free and easy being single not rushing into any relationships or maybe i was too scared to fall into relationships. i know he's just a ttm not yet officially my boyfriend but he might have his reason for not doing so,anyhoos sometimes i feel left out but deep inside my heart i knew i am his girl.a short meet up with him i treasured with every breathe i take, nomatter what he's the guy who've captured my heart and i will stand strong and wait for him nomatter what.now im left with one prayer so that our relationship stand strong and was blessed by ALLAH.insyallah, he is my MR SUPERHUMAN. amin.

Due to time constrain and busy schedule for work and test by test came by and soon by module exam is up.so my blog is kinda dusty.apologies for not updating.life's been hell good and alhamdulillah fasting is still on as usual eventhough im woking or whatever reason.everything went smoothly at work its just that my dark eye circle is getting darker.lack of rest and tired of standing.collegues are good too still the same old enemy which i shall call her a bimbo.however between her and aidil was over as part time syg.haha, seriously she deserve it.hate her real good.at work there's alot of part time syg kinda relationship.so uncool.imagine if one day you really fall in love and what's the consequences?oh gosh.some unhappiness between locals and foreigners happened and coincidently i was involve being a center girl.-.-" can i stop being in the middle?but afterall work is fun.today at school my gerfys was having a bad day,one is sick and the other had some trauma going on.to miramary;"get well soon okay ?" to the other one, everyone has a bad day or a "ashamed day" i shall call it its just that you don't know when it will happen and yours came today.so you have to be strong and be yourself, yes its like memalukan but nomatter what its a lie if none of the human in this world had that bad experience before.so a piece of advise next time checked from top to below before going out.(: yesterday 25-08-09, breakfast outside at eastpoint banquet with syuu and mira.had a bowl of banmian for myself and ayam panggang set for syuu and wantan noodle for mira.eventhough its just the three of us i had fun breaking fast with them and as we eat we talk about the phone incident when we're young.
after that i and syuu zoom off and slept in the train.so thats the story about yesterday. (:

i have lots of picture to upload but wait can ? pls? (: baby is off to hutan again for two days. and he texted me just now informing me he's tired and as a understanding person i say go slp. i love you. (:

to syuuee; to be with an ns man, patience is what you need. 2nd understanding. 3rd shout " i rindu you tahu tak !!!" alright brother. i need to study, break time pls.

actually the camp was over but i have yet to update about it as i was really busy with sch stuffs and work and the BL thing. so here's my long wordy post just for this topic . (:

1stday; a really morning meet up with syuu at j.e mrt as early as 5.45am ! crazy people. headed to pioneer mrt station with borhan and zoom off to ite simei. meet up with the rest all feeling excited and pagi i laugh like one madcow. -.-'' we were seated at the forum waiting for our names to be called to be grouped with the unknowns humans from different course. and i was grouped in group 1. sumpah i was like nobody and alone whereas gerlfys dah tercampak lain grp. however mary was in grp 2 so alhamdulillah, dimana ada 1 disitu ada 2. so after some ice breaking games in sch itself we zoom off to the MOE campsite in jalan bahtera . 1st day ntg much just alot of ice breaking games and knowing each other , and joshua is my instructor for the camp. so the rest of the time spent is to play some simple games and lights off, sleeping time. with my love miramary. sumpah, shikin tdo mati. :P

2nd day; woke up at 7am and wash up with cold water, burrrrrr. off to breakfast and as usual routine was to go to daya's table and disturb her . my favourite, after that off to our activities. i forget all the games name but there's one game that made people remember me. shikin patkinson. wth! -.-" its all saif fault fo shouting at my ear and make me react like that. urgh, after some territories game and captain ball multi level if im not wrong, and as expected my group lose. haha, stupid but nevermind it was damn fun playing with water bombs. aswan on the other hand was getting ready to pour water on me so do i, so i was all wet and smelly and meleket ! after the game we were gettin gready for our campfire skit and dance. MJ was our modal. we use his life journey as our ski and dance. and i dance the song beat it choreographed by fliq. "aku tak tahu joegt okay!" buruk sungguh. but overall it was fun dancing and making fun , laughed all the way . im soo gay ! (: campfire night was one memorable night which i can never forget as usual which makes grp 1 more close and intact and i love grp 1. after supper lights off and was busy talking with baby till 12am. and off to sleep. again, tido mati. :P

3rd day; the last day of camp which i hated most, being seperated from the people we're close in just a day of getting knowing them. i was shocked to see faz crying cus he said "aku tak pernah dpt grp gerek mcm gni , sume bond same2 mcm jiwe gitu." aww, the hitam-hitam manis guy said that. so touching lah brother. so after the last lunch together and the WASHING OF TOILETS. we seperate leaving the memories email address and phone numbers to the groups members (:
BUT AS USUAL THERE'S ALWAYS A CHAMPION GROUP, AND AS EXPECTED-LAH-KAN. GROUP ONE WIN THAT ! (: with the "human fireworks" by the guys. i love group one.were supposed to meet baby but he went jempotan with mummy. but its okay. family first. im used to it baby. i love you.

went home with syuuee syafiq and two other humans via train but before that bought choc frappe from macd and headed home. throw all clothes in the bakul and off to sleep. all shagged and tired. nomatter where i sleep. i tido mati. :P

when baby is back ? i miss him fucking hell .