oh well, this picture was taken on the 20th of november where JM0904B my class, had a field trip to goat farm somewhere at lim chu kang there if im not wrong. studied about its processing stuffs and all the certificates and everything which got to do with our lectures and modules. had fun there and we drank a free chocolate flavoured goat milk. after which then we took the bus which the school provide us with and off to back to school and get ready for work as it falls on friday. syuu craving for the day was asam pedas and eventually my mum cooked that the day before and i brought to school and syuu was happy (: "atlast, asam pedas. lol" oh well, there's alot more pictures but 5 is enough for the day. bekkkkkbekkkk (:

currently is talking with bf, what i mean is bestfriend. syah (: each of us are truly and deeply hurt by what our ex's have done to us. we've been bf since the day we know each other through msn from tagged if im not wrong. and he's the only one ive bullied so far. and he said that i talked so much. he reminds me of my beloved ex, syed. duuhhhh ~ cause syah too had arab's blood. what's the big deal anyway.he's super cute with the slenge face throughout. stubborn guy but however he's the nicer among all, have yet to know his true colour. lol. on the 8 dec he'll be serving his 2yrs of national service, pls god let him be a policeman cause i want to see him in that uniform, handsome kan. ouh gosh. *caiiirrr* lol, BUT most importantly, i'll be missing him for sure, i got no one to bully anymore. *wink* im like down with fever and flu and sore throat and can it be any worst than this. omg. *toyong2 hidung* had my 1st QCA practical assignment just now, came unprepared but survived with hariz's help. *pheww* another true story ive found out, on the day of my broke up with that fella ive found out that he actually met with his ex i mean current gf, titybaybe which i shall pronounce titybabi. and they patch up together. how hindustan it can be. and jack told tity that it's KARMA, because i once asked for a break up and now it's his turn. does he knows what KARMA is ? oh, so whatever. besides there will be always one day where i will know the whole story besides his hindustan drama. im moving on slowly and syah is doing it too. ive got nothing to lose anyway. lets see how far they can go. current inbox message. dear labiq an ex JWPS. dear bf my shahrulnizam. dear aidil, he is staying in commonwealth. and new more to come. one to lose lots to go. oh, i never change. goodnight readers.

yesterday for PM lesson i watched paranormal activity for the second time and it was the third time for syuu. i swear this was the most lame part cause it was far different from the part we watched at the movie. where the girl throw the guy at the camera. i swear it was trauma-listic. and again we lepak at cafe 1 had some toast and hot tea since the day was cold. after much talking and fun we headed home and jack called me up to meet me since he is also on his way back in other words book out from his camp. nervousness and all mixed feelings was what i felt but still i act normal. and when we reached my house we sat under the void deck and this is where we confessed everything. and yes, what that bitch told me was true. its was damn fucking true and i couln't held back my tears eventually it roll down my cheeks. i was trembling with the cold air passing by. but i know deep inside me im strong cause i have nothing to regret with. im ready to accept anything and yes, today is the end of our relationship. he finally asked for it and what crossed my mind was he asked that bitch a short meet up. omg. i just say this little phrase. " treasure the ones who treasures you cause when you lose that treasure you are a trash " and he kept silent. what more i could say. enough is enough. im strong and i think you don't deserve me. and u said that yourself. goodbye jack. forever.

a two sided story and a one heart that's taking it. imagine how it really hurts. when you know about ur love one cheated behind your back in a harsh way. eversince i heard that i was speechless. nothing i could say. i told myself. i need to move on and i will with ALLAH blessings and strength. with IBU loves and support eventually i slowly move on. friends in school never fails to make me laugh especially muhd hariz talib in lab precisely and not forgetting my gfs. i tried very hard to forget everything she told me with full descriptions. i hate you jack, seriously i do. and i don't think i shall call you that. i should call you jackass fucker daud ! i have yet to faced you directly and i will one day! ya allah, kau terangi lah hatiku ini untuk menghadapi ini semua cobaan. amin. ibu have been there since i started change in the house, she was aware about my piercing and since there she's been giving me extra love and care, i couldn't even face everyone on monday at school. i kept crying and my appetite has been down lately. at night ibu hugged me and feed me 2 spoons of food for the rest of the day. even as im typing this little post my tears was rolling. how could you be so mean daud, what did i do wrong till you have to do this to me. i thought you said before you was my superhuman and u will always. but ended up with this. maybe this wasn't true but even if it how could you do this ? have sex with somebody behind your girlfriend. omg. whatever it is, im still hurt. and im done with you and your lies and your attitude. you were never true in the first place. thanks.

as when u read the title you'll know it. lols. i don't know why the heck ive pierced my eyebrow. it looks cool but you know what is KENTAL. and puhlease, zaman bila nak tindik-tindik. i just want to have it and own it and whatever. lols. went to bugis just now after school. i swear i slept the whole journey to school as soon as i step into the mrt which will bounce back and off to tanah merah. i guess i had lesser sweet dreams yesterday night. so after care session and a little "blanja" from our beloved CA. a treat as low as $2 was given, had toast bread and ice milo. (: however it was enjoyable. so after that we trained to bugis since i had this craving of yami yogurt again and wanted to pierce my eyebrow, BUT this part i cannot tahan. syuu & nana WENT FOR WINDOW SHOP. and they really shopped. omg. so they shop a few cheap things but its nice. i wanted to but i can't cus ive spent $80 in topshop. lols. jolly well after that i went to pierce, i thought it was kinda pain but it was TOTALLY NOT. and nana wanted to do too. but something holding her up. so since im happy and they are happy we went home happily. lols. and thats it , ive done it like finally. now my bed is calling. goodnight humans. (:

yesterday was another bad moments which ive seen my whole entire 18 yrs of life in the house. ntg special yet ntg is memorable.i kept thinking how is my future will be if i were to get married and have my own child. its like misunderunderstanding will forever be there. that's why they call humans being. seeing my parents fought is ntg new so that was what happens yesterday. boring -.-" and i gave up.

his name is yan, know him from msn quite a long time ago but just met and become friends. he really got that charm maybe pakai guna2 kots. but his the type who you couldn't see his true colours behind his flawless face. infact his moves were damn smooth with lies beneath his tongue. so here's the story goes . i contacted with him less than a week and we met one of the days. and he throws his sugar words at me but i did not pick it up. cus i know i had enough of sweet talkers in life. but one thing for sure, he's good when con on people. so being a SUPER generous person indeed i lend him 30bux total since he said that money is for makan. and little that i know he lied. and saturday i met jack and told him everything cus i was caught up between his dumb gf and his dad. and like finally i knew everything about why he cheated on me. but phew, jack was there with me and he hugged me while trying to cool me down neither he did scold me nor pester me. and being a good partner in life he help me settle this case and promised me that this thing will end soon. ive learned another mistake in life which actually happens twice in my life which i will always keep in mind. for yan's gf, i knew what happened to you but please think, ure not his slaved of love and for sex. he is not a responsible boyfriend for you babe, whatever it is ALLAH maha kaya ALLAH maha adil. insyaallah, die akan dapat balasannye. and for jack, im really relieved that you are there with me and i really hope we turns out well one day cus i know deep inside us is still a WE.

by dani, a random post. "i wish tuesday morning feels like honey on the pancakes."

here's another story which i encounter and still im afraid of, after meeting jack i was kind of disturbed my an african who try to talk to me in train after jack left in clementi, without any delay i sit on the priority seat and he joined. here's the convo.

him: hey, hello excuse me are you a chinese?
i turned.
me: oh no im not i'm a malay.
him: oh well u looked like a chinese seriously. are you mixed ?
me: no, im pure malay.
him: oh really thats cool, but you look like one, and anw, its difficult to find a singaporean to talk in the train. you're diff.
me: oh maybe. sporeans are weird i guess.
and he told me grandmother stories.
---shorcut---
him: anw my name is james, and if you dont mind cud i have ur num?
me: what for i dnt think you need that.
---pester-pester and all passengers looking at me---
me: fine, ********. bye.

went home and told jack about this and another fight goes on. omg ! ya allah, kau lindungi lah aku . amin .

ouh congrats congrats to JM0904B for the soccer match as they won 2nd in place. im so proud of you guys. im sorry i wasn't there to support you guys but my heart was there with you all who played. chey, like real . lol . school was fun these past few days. nothing is fun than being in school and leading a student's life. today i woke up late and as usual im late by a few min to practical. lol. and for like the first time i slept throughout the whole journey starting from joo koon to tanah merah. just a glance at cityhall. ohmy. i was damn tired i told ya. thank goodness there's syuu. and she remind me to bring along SNW attire. and of course i enjoyed playing badminton and going to the gym. oh yes, im super motivated to slim down my fats all over the body. lol. but ended up i ate chicken chop after that. how bad it can be. merepek~ so thats for mondays blues. however, syuu and me have been CRAVING for yami yogurt and so without further-a-do. we went all the way to bugis and bought it. i tell you it was heaven i swear adding on to the cooling weather. natural and fruity pebbles for me and natural and strawberry for syuu. i vowed that when we step to bugis , no way we are going to shop but we still did. banyak lah punya tak shop. lol. guess what we shop for ? groceries. bagus sgt lah tu . lol. but in the end we are still happy so why not. and home sweet home . (:

hell yes, this movie was two thumbs up for me. its was super bloody and romantic. its was an unplan thing to watch, since we end class earlier on monday so this movie struck our mind since syuu is still 17 years old. i wanted to watch darah but she can't so we decided to watch this instead. i was totally broke and syuu treat me for this. aww , thank you syuu. unfortunately in the cinema syuu was shivering which shows that she is going to be sick any minute. and it was true. so syuu had mc for 2 days and i have to to school alone as i used too. get well soon my dear.
anw, i took numbers of picture but my lappie was being a trash ass today so i can't uploas it for today. school was normal today and i need to say this. I LOVE THAT ONE DOLLAR SHOE. i so love that ! (: i guess that is it. im tucking in soon. goodnight people.

its been quite a long period of time i last do my update , oh well i just want to take a break of this technology stuffs. count by fingers its been one month plus i left my blog dusty and rusty. so today before my sickness of laziness appear i rather do some back up stories about what's happening in my life.firstly, im still an ite student, *duhh* and still struggling in waking up early for school as early as 5.45am? met up with syuu and "booked" our seatings on the priorty seat and trained all the way to school. its been our routine to sleep and be inconsiderate. oh well, we need to sleep. this goes on from monday to friday. working still as a retail worker in topshop, and i swear it was damn tiring if you got my schedule including my school timetable. i wanted to ask for a time break but i in need of cash. enrolling soon and that cost 2k total. so im like thinking of changing to a new job. any recommendations anyone ? about my love life its like suddenly unusual not the kind of rainbows i can see instead grey skies. little that we know this couldn't go far then it really happens. trying to save but it just turns back to the same old ways. im really tired of this. i swear, im just PLAIN lazy to think about all this. if there's any chance that we could meet again i tell you please don't cause im tired. so thats my little update in my life.