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i'm SHIKIN.
15 JULY is my favourite day.
MR SUPERHUMAN is on the way.
and fcuk off to those who have NO interests in my heart!
& i'm got it?

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Thursday, December 17, 2009
FOREVER IN MY LIFE

17 december 2009. that is the day apit left me for good for like 1-2mth while he serve his sentence due to some misunderstanding which led him to this jail sentence. eventhough we had just started to get close and starting things out well but now its gone just like that. am i dreaming or am i dying ? its really fast to let go of what you had just dream about and now you have to put that dream behind and face the reality. it's just yesterday he told me that today he will leave me for good , with the intention of being involved in an accident but now it's different, he have to serve his sentence because he did something wrong at work. he had a bad temper and he can't controlled it that's why. should i wait or should i move on ? i know my superhuman had come and now its gone again. it's hard to find a guy who hold your future at the age of 21. with the words he promised you, the trust he showed you and the time he give you. but most importantly the LOVE he showed you. i can't believe the guy i hated most and tried my very best to avoid him is the guy now im dying for. not because of the looks but the responsibility he showed and kind of man where girls are trying hard to find. i've found him and now his gone. so what now? what should i do. why must i overcome this test from GOD. why must he be gone when i love him with all my heart. and why im still crying when we have no strings attached.

" my love my love my love, i'll give you all my love. "

the words he said before he went into the police car, " you jage diri you baik okay2, make sure i keluar dari prison you pass your btt tau. you tunggu i keluar okay. nanti ape2 i pass msg pat mama, i bilang mama you panggil dia mama. hehe. dengar cakap i tau, jage diri baik2. kalau u nak cari matair, cari yang betul2. yang boleh jage you tau. kalau die jahat tinggalkan dia.cari yang baru tau. jangan campur dengan budak2 nakal , kalau you rase diorang jahat, angkat kaki jalan. jangan campur dengan diorang. you tunggu i keluar okay, i akan contact you punya, jangan risau. kat dalam sana semua free, makan free tau. i tak akan lupa makan nye. you tu, jangan lupa makan. you dah pass evaluation kan? belajar kereta betul2 nanti i dah keluar i ajar you macam mane nak bawak kereta. then i dah keluar kita jumpa tengok wayang okay. dah shikin, jgn nangis lagi. dengar cakap i. tkmo degil2. i dah nak masok ni, byebye sayang, i love you i miss you. jangan nangis okay. "

now you tell me how could i survived without him by my side.
alhamdulillah, i passed my evaluation with his concern and his explanation. amin.
ya allah, aku minta padamu, bukakan lah kebenaran. selamatkan aku dan apit dunia dan akhirat ya allah, cepatkan lah seksa apit di dalam ya allah, kau bukakan hati apit dengan kesejukkan ya allah, kau hapuskan lah api kemarahan di hatinya ya allah, aku pinta padamu ya allah, makbulkan lah doa ku ini. amin, ya rabbal a'lamin. semoga apit selamat. insyallah.
sayang, i'll be waiting for your return and your smile. :'(