" ѕнιкιηzєє ♥ "

its a female

i'm SHIKIN.
15 JULY is my favourite day.
MR SUPERHUMAN is on the way.
and fcuk off to those who have NO interests in my heart!
& i'm

got it?

chatterbox

Saturday, December 19, 2009

" love is like a road where you don't know to whom it may lead "

" im speechless, i got nothing else to say anymore. im stoned after hearing what apit had just said. that's really enough shikin. enough of guys hurting your feelings. you have your pride , you have your dignity. you don't need a man to make you happy. you don't need him or anyone who was named as a male to live this world with you. "

alhamdulillah, apit is saved from the sentenced. if not he shall faced the bars for 6 years of his life. syukur alhamdulillah, im happy for him.

dear apit, this post is for you, i know you wouldn't read it but im just letting this feelings go for once as my memories with you. i know you have lied to me from the very first moment i get to know you, i know you faced alot of challenges in life that many people doesn't. im still wondering from where i get to know you and stuffs. but maybe GOD knows the answer. HE might want us to know each other so as to expand the problems faced by other and learn from it. little by little i fall for you NOT because of what you have or what you own but i know i need someone like you who've gone through the world with hardships so that you will guide me in future times but i think im wrong. you had someone else but maybe you're not fated together with her. i've let go my feelings too much till i didn't realised that im being a stupid dumb ass. its okay, this is part and parcel of life, i realised that after you had just told me and recap back what i have done for myself including my family. i started to change bit by bit. im ignoring my family who has been waited for my presence. i started to have nightmares about your problems i couldn't sleep well and that results to not having proper meals and im down with high fever and she who i've been ignoring is the one who fed me the medicine this morning. i didn't realised till nora my ex colleague told me i've lost weight. which i think is impossible cause the shorter my hair is the fatter i looked. why people noticed the change i'm bearing with while i can't ? apit, i still need your explainations but im sorry. i don't think i will be the shikin you've known who always cares about your life cause for all this while my care and concern you've ignored plus all the lies you've made and thanks for making me cry for no reasons at all. maybe im scared of losing you. " kawan, matair boleh cari. tapi ibu ayah dan adik susah nak diganti " i've nothing else to say. somebody please put a stopper at my eyes so that my tears wouldn't flow for another human called man. apit, do control your hot tempered and you're great friend i known. you're always my friend not more than that. i hope so. im still hurt cause never did once you cared about my feelings. you let your past haunt you and be a selfish person to other and im always the unlucky one. that's all i have to say.

" if only tears are words, you'll understand my feelings. "