" ѕнιкιηzєє ♥ "

its a female

i'm SHIKIN.
15 JULY is my favourite day.
MR SUPERHUMAN is on the way.
and fcuk off to those who have NO interests in my heart!
& i'm

got it?

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Saturday, December 5, 2009

my purple boy (:

" ive known you since im primary four, for which i still could remember the teacher name is mr agus. back then we are still a kid who knows nothing about life ahead. and i still remember that you always disturb me and seeking attention from me by throwing staples bullet and took away my stuffs. sit besides me and copy my answer. run around the class playing catching. we seperated therafter since we got different results. but still we share the same malay class lesson. and the playful part of you never fails to irritate me. aftermuch going through life in primary school we step ahead and went different secondary school and we lost contacts with many more friends. i could'nt remember how we could go through back and talk as per normal how we used to just as a friend or an old mate. but now i still can't believe that what we're going through, not as a friend but more than it. im speechless and puzzled, it keeps running through my mind whenever i saw you.i felt comfortable in your arms , warm in your palms and happy to see you smile. but this feelings which im now facing alone is tougher than what you think. i don't have the confidence that we could grow strong together since we're living in the same estate and your friends is my friends. and if it were to happens and become enemy the feelings is so akward adding on to the lies we hear or anything that could break us apart. secondly, for now im really happy that you're with me but i still sense some weird feelings that is not with us when im with my ex's.you have the charm and everything that a girl wants but i still want that sense which i don't get it from you. prolly the confidence in you? the feeling of wanting me by ur side? that something which is lacking. seriously im puzzled. whatever it is, i don't think we could make it to that step further. maybe we will but i can sense that it wouldn't be long. furthermore i don't feel the secureness with you. i know you're a good guy for most i know. and i hope you don't waste ur life with someone you're not sure with. final say, i need you but i couldn't love you for now. yes, i love you but the feelings is different. sad to say, i miss my ex. like who does'nt? whenever i step out of my workplace the 1st thing i would see is the place where he sit down and wait for me with his jebek face. maybe one day everthing is shown up and i prayed for the best. "

'' dear god, if he's the one for me, bless us with ur security and love "

yours sincerely: nur ashikin binte zulkeple