read and understand. tsk tsk. i failed to make someone stays in my heart and he's leaving.

go and find that someone who can swallow your attitude. i had enough of your nonsense seriously. a stupid basic courtesy can become a big fuss and fight. since the day i know you always make a big fuss out of it. firstly, not wanting a video call with you, you scolded me and said that u don't want to contact me anymore and next is i slept after school and stuffs not calling you, you even said the same thing. please. what you want actually? u want me to be with you 24hr always? i don't understand you. and u said i keep repeating my mistakes. but you? you are damn fucking perfect till you didn't see yourself in the mirror. what's the big deal if u have a car u have a bike. hey, im not the kind of bitch lah. i have my own too okay. even if it takes a longer time then you. and don't think that i have the same attitude as you IDIOT EX-GIRLFRIEND. the problems actually lies in you. you kept seeing the same girl as your ex in your eyes. u never really open your heart willingly and accept the fact that all girls are different. yes, they had the similar things but you must see inside her heart. is she being true to you? is her love true to you? you must must must open your eyes, throw your grudge that you have when you are with your ex or the past girls you've been with. i had my past too maybe not as bad as you but still that is my past. im looking for the future and im still being hurt but i accept with all my heart. i swallow every words every i actions i faced with strength. sometimes i want to give up too.but this is life my dear. people never die without lies and wrongdoings. people do come and go. people do leave you like nothing happens between you and her/him. but nomatter what this is life. and nomatter what and how hard is it. you have to face it. face it. leave you past. i beg you. leave your past. please. you will suffer if you never heed my advise. thank you friend.

wuhuuu, thats korea ! (: danial yusuf just left singapore to korea. hope he is safely back and have fun there my dear friend (: and don't forget my oleh-oleh ok. i wonder how he survive with 100singapore dollars there.idiot. haha. i got nothing better to do today since class end at 2pm. which is super early. so iu headed to tamp mall with ball and was upset that SPLITZ shop was closed down. wonder why. hmm. headed home straight and zoom off to update my blog and stuffs. today menu is bubur so i diet for today. didn't eat a proper meal such as rice and etc. ate kuayteow goreng at sch. many support that i should lose weight. even hafiz (syuu's abg sdare) should i ? hmm. i think i should. no, its a MUST! this saturday will be my last day at topshop. so gonna miss that place. 6mth working there. the longest among all the part timers. hope i get to work in universal studio as sales. *fingers crossed* i miss syuu. i miss hafiz even more. lol. kidding. 2 days straight not going to school with her. haha. like a dumbass. faizal confessed about his feelings to me. i think its time to forget about him. in other words, concentrate on taufiq? he's been nice to me ever since we keep in contact. he's been hoping and hoping. never did once he give up. but its me. i couldn't be the shikin whom i used to be when im with jack. the trust that he broke and more. it hurts. because of him others are involved too. and its amazing that ive been staying single so strong in 5 mths. and i hope i last long. i wudn't want to commit myself in a broken relationships. if thats my fate it shall be. for now, i just want to be single. period. i must study for tml SHP test. and oh yes, exam is in 2 weeks time. thank goodness. i need to study. goodbye. and i miss you. :(

" happy 19th years-sary to my parents."

i took off on sunday just to celebrate their anniversary. its theirs not mine. just being a kpo-kpo. so we siblings followed. we woke up as early as 10am. and went out at 11+ am. headed to takashimaya seoul garden and eat till we all are bloated. 3 hours of our time spend eating.

then head to geylang and bought some barang-barang dapur. and then head to ikea at queensway and beli lampu tidur. cheap (santee) in korean. lol. $4.90 (: and went back home wash up then out again to play bowling. i had a super fun family time together. should this more often. okays. (:

semoga ibu dan ayah berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat. amin.

done by the two NYONYAS.

syuhaidah and nur amira.

CRAP~ -.-"

" future work to be in their olden days."

bahahahhahhaahhahaah~!

This was from dzaki, he worked at my school as an IT technician. he used to be my crush anyway but that was months ago. now no more. ive thought it through. neehh~ ain't a wreker. so ya, we still contact but just as normal friends. (: this shall be the memory. ergh, never had this kind oof memory at school before. even in primary and secondary. weirdo ~

" and oh, it doesn't look like a whole packet. he cheat me.lol "